Thursday, February 17, 2011
Sorry that I Loved You
For all of the time that i tried for your smile
For making you think that i was worth the while
So your love love love love love would be mine
For sending you flowers and holding your hand
That no one was there to take a stand
But then love love love made us blind
And I’m so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I’m sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn’t turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
So sorry that i loved you
Sorry that i needed you
Sorry that i hold you tight
And I’m So sorry for...
Making you love me and saying goodbye
For being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by
For giving you every thing that you dreamed
For taking it back when i fled the scene
sorry love,for wasting your time
And I’m so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I’m sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn’t turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
I’m so sorry that i loved you
Sorry that i needed you
Sorry that i hold you tight
And apology now after all of this time
Won’t make my difference tonight
But I’m hoping I’m Sorry will open your mind
To love love love love in your life
Sorry that i hurt you
Sorry that i fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I’m sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn’t turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
So sorry that i hurt you
Sorry that i fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I’m sorry that it came true
But sorry do can’t turn back time
I’m sorry that i loved you
I’m sorry that i hurt you
I’m so sorry that i loved you
I’m sorry that i hurt you
Sorry that i loved you
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
School's Starting
Looking at my my school's blackboard makes my anxiety worse. I can start to feel the stress and pressure building up when I see a large number of readings and journals being posted online.
Oh gosh! School hasn't even started yet!
Now there's last minute purchase of items, packing the necessary stuff in my luggage, passing the customs successfully, travel more than half a day before I reach Canberra, cleaning up the apartment, renting a car, figure my way to the warehouse, move all the stuff, make at least another 3 to 5 of such trips, unpack my belongings, go to school, print notes, buy textbook, pay school fees etc etc ........
No wonder I'm getting all that insomnia.
Oh gosh! School hasn't even started yet!
Now there's last minute purchase of items, packing the necessary stuff in my luggage, passing the customs successfully, travel more than half a day before I reach Canberra, cleaning up the apartment, renting a car, figure my way to the warehouse, move all the stuff, make at least another 3 to 5 of such trips, unpack my belongings, go to school, print notes, buy textbook, pay school fees etc etc ........
No wonder I'm getting all that insomnia.
Monday, February 14, 2011
Insomnia
I'm feeling exhausted but I just can't get to sleep. I've been tossing and turning, turning and tossing. Thoughts keep running through my mind. There's just soooooooo much to think, plan and worry about.
It must be anxiety.
It must be anxiety.
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Last Week
This weekend will be my last weekend in Singapore. Starting from today (or rather yesterday), everyday will be packed with activities, from running errands to performing chores to meeting people. (Actually, the past two weeks have been like that. It just gets more intense as the days pass by.)
To tell the truth, it's a little tiring on my part but I'm not complaining because every moment spent is carefully planned and thought of. I made sure every errand I run, every chore I perform and every person I meet is my time and effort, simply because there's too many things to do given the limited time I have.
Did I mention I have yet to pack my luggage? You may think that it's an easy chore but it's definitely not for me because I take days, literally, to pack my luggage.
Thus, this is the last chance if you'd like to meet me in my final week here and there's no guarantee that you'll be given a 'free slot' because good things (me) are in popular demand! Hehs!
To tell the truth, it's a little tiring on my part but I'm not complaining because every moment spent is carefully planned and thought of. I made sure every errand I run, every chore I perform and every person I meet is my time and effort, simply because there's too many things to do given the limited time I have.
Did I mention I have yet to pack my luggage? You may think that it's an easy chore but it's definitely not for me because I take days, literally, to pack my luggage.
Thus, this is the last chance if you'd like to meet me in my final week here and there's no guarantee that you'll be given a 'free slot' because good things (me) are in popular demand! Hehs!
Monday, February 7, 2011
Think twice about what you scold your kids
Dad: Si Gi Na
Me: Where do si gi nas come from? Si Lao pei and si Lao bu!
---------------------------------
Mum: 你很王八蛋！
Me: 如果我是王八蛋，那你不就是王八！？！？！
---------------------------------
And my parents didn't know whether to laugh or get mad when I rebuked them. Hahas.
Me: Where do si gi nas come from? Si Lao pei and si Lao bu!
---------------------------------
Mum: 你很王八蛋！
Me: 如果我是王八蛋，那你不就是王八！？！？！
---------------------------------
And my parents didn't know whether to laugh or get mad when I rebuked them. Hahas.
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Sick Again ...
I woke up feeling a little 'heavy-headed' with my throat a little sore. It doesn't help when I've been plagued by migraines for days. Seems like I'm falling sick. Not the best time to fall ill since my last two weeks in Singapore is filled with errands and chores to run. There are also many people who I will like to spend time with but it proves to be a challenge given the limited time left. Oh, not to mention the fact that I have yet to pack my luggage simply because my luggage is still at Samsonite service centre.
My muscles are aching now and I can only pray that my joints won't hurt because that is a good indicator of me running a fever. *prays* Did I mention that I left my awesome yet expensive thermometer in Australia? Without it, I can only rely on my achy joints and 'ah-ga-ration' to tell if I am running a fever. Sighs.
I remember running a fever during this period of time last year because I was feeling achy and uncomfy at the Ang Pao River. Sighs, not again!
My muscles are aching now and I can only pray that my joints won't hurt because that is a good indicator of me running a fever. *prays* Did I mention that I left my awesome yet expensive thermometer in Australia? Without it, I can only rely on my achy joints and 'ah-ga-ration' to tell if I am running a fever. Sighs.
I remember running a fever during this period of time last year because I was feeling achy and uncomfy at the Ang Pao River. Sighs, not again!
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Numbered Days
Suddenly, I am starting to wonder if pursuing my studies in Australia was the right thing to do. I have given up so much to further my studies; money, family, love, youth, time, furries. Not to mention the number of misfortunes I had faced before heading to Australia and during my stay there.
All my life I had dream of studying in Australia; for some unknown reasons, I had always thought I would study there and have always been working towards it. Now that I am given the chance to actually fulfill my dreams of studying there, I am starting to doubt my own decision. I dread the arrival of the day I leave.
The day Chinese New Year ends shall be the day I return to Australia. It feels scary to know that my days are numbered. To speak the truth, I feel a great sense of uncertainty. The fact that Australia is currently plagued with natural disaster adds on to my anxiety.
I wish the festive season will not end. I wish there is a good reason for me to stay. I wish someone can tell me not to leave. I wish ..... you will ask me to stay for you ...
All my life I had dream of studying in Australia; for some unknown reasons, I had always thought I would study there and have always been working towards it. Now that I am given the chance to actually fulfill my dreams of studying there, I am starting to doubt my own decision. I dread the arrival of the day I leave.
The day Chinese New Year ends shall be the day I return to Australia. It feels scary to know that my days are numbered. To speak the truth, I feel a great sense of uncertainty. The fact that Australia is currently plagued with natural disaster adds on to my anxiety.
I wish the festive season will not end. I wish there is a good reason for me to stay. I wish someone can tell me not to leave. I wish ..... you will ask me to stay for you ...
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Reunion Dinner
Unlike previous years, I had eaten the most number of reunion dinner this year.
Round 1 - 29th Jan 2011, Saturday
A week before, my mum was happily asking me if I had anything on Friday and Saturday night, and since I had none, she told me to keep them free. She had wanted to do some shopping for groceries and goodies for the Chinese New Year (CNY) festive season on Friday night. She mentioned that we should purchase some ingredients for a steamboat session on Saturday night, since we are making a trip down to the hypermart. She spoke with such great enthusiasm, it got me a little puzzled as she was never a 'steamboat' person. Feeling lazy, I did not question her but went ahead as told.
On Saturday, my sister (Piggie) and I were shopping when she suddenly blurted "the steamboat session is planned for you 'cause no one likes steamboat as much as you". At that moment, I realised that I won't be having reunion dinner with my family this year and that was potentially a reunion dinner planned for me/us. How nice!
It's a shame I was feeling very exhausted that night and thus was a little grumpy. By the way, we were having steamboat reunion supper instead. We ate from 11pm to 2am because my father came home late. Zzz. Nonetheless , I was very thankful for the session. Everything was awesome that night. Except for the presence of something or rather, someone.
-------------------------------------------------------
Round 2 - 1st Feb 2011, Tuesday
Every year (since I don't know when), my secondary school friends and I will always arrange to have reunion dinner together. In previous years, we used to have DIY steamboat sessions. However, in recent years, we started eating out. Initially we went to tze char stalls and this year, we have our reunion dinner at a seafood restaurant. Guess our choices of food gets more expensive as more of us start working. It didn't help when I'm one of the two full-time students. Then again, it's great companion and good food that makes the meal a perfect one, isn't it?
It's a shame zq and his girlfriend couldn't join us for reunion dinner as zq has a fresh wound which requires 4 stitches. Lesson learnt: Do not jump over a drain on a rainy day when the floor is wet and slippery.
-------------------------------------------------------
Round 3 - 2nd Feb 2011, Wednesday
For the first time in two and a half decades, I got to join my maternal extended family for reunion dinner, something which I have been looking forward to for years. I really never thought it was possible until I came up with some sly plan and I don't regret what I've done. In fact, I'm glad I came up with that idea.
Even though I'm having homecooked food at my uncle's place instead of expensive delicacies at some big fancy restaurant, it is the best reunion dinner I've ever had in the whole of my life. I wish my future years can be like that.
If I ever get married and have to gather for reunion dinner with my in-laws, I can only hope they are nice and pleasant people to get along with. There's nothing more important than peace and harmony within the family, genuity and sincerity between people.
Thus, in this new year, I will like to wish all of you a Happy and Blessed Chinese New Year filled with loads of love, happiness, fun, peace and harmony.
Round 1 - 29th Jan 2011, Saturday
A week before, my mum was happily asking me if I had anything on Friday and Saturday night, and since I had none, she told me to keep them free. She had wanted to do some shopping for groceries and goodies for the Chinese New Year (CNY) festive season on Friday night. She mentioned that we should purchase some ingredients for a steamboat session on Saturday night, since we are making a trip down to the hypermart. She spoke with such great enthusiasm, it got me a little puzzled as she was never a 'steamboat' person. Feeling lazy, I did not question her but went ahead as told.
On Saturday, my sister (Piggie) and I were shopping when she suddenly blurted "the steamboat session is planned for you 'cause no one likes steamboat as much as you". At that moment, I realised that I won't be having reunion dinner with my family this year and that was potentially a reunion dinner planned for me/us. How nice!
It's a shame I was feeling very exhausted that night and thus was a little grumpy. By the way, we were having steamboat reunion supper instead. We ate from 11pm to 2am because my father came home late. Zzz. Nonetheless , I was very thankful for the session. Everything was awesome that night. Except for the presence of something or rather, someone.
-------------------------------------------------------
Round 2 - 1st Feb 2011, Tuesday
Every year (since I don't know when), my secondary school friends and I will always arrange to have reunion dinner together. In previous years, we used to have DIY steamboat sessions. However, in recent years, we started eating out. Initially we went to tze char stalls and this year, we have our reunion dinner at a seafood restaurant. Guess our choices of food gets more expensive as more of us start working. It didn't help when I'm one of the two full-time students. Then again, it's great companion and good food that makes the meal a perfect one, isn't it?
It's a shame zq and his girlfriend couldn't join us for reunion dinner as zq has a fresh wound which requires 4 stitches. Lesson learnt: Do not jump over a drain on a rainy day when the floor is wet and slippery.
-------------------------------------------------------
Round 3 - 2nd Feb 2011, Wednesday
For the first time in two and a half decades, I got to join my maternal extended family for reunion dinner, something which I have been looking forward to for years. I really never thought it was possible until I came up with some sly plan and I don't regret what I've done. In fact, I'm glad I came up with that idea.
Even though I'm having homecooked food at my uncle's place instead of expensive delicacies at some big fancy restaurant, it is the best reunion dinner I've ever had in the whole of my life. I wish my future years can be like that.
If I ever get married and have to gather for reunion dinner with my in-laws, I can only hope they are nice and pleasant people to get along with. There's nothing more important than peace and harmony within the family, genuity and sincerity between people.
Thus, in this new year, I will like to wish all of you a Happy and Blessed Chinese New Year filled with loads of love, happiness, fun, peace and harmony.
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)
