Saturday, February 5, 2011

Numbered Days

Suddenly, I am starting to wonder if pursuing my studies in Australia was the right thing to do. I have given up so much to further my studies; money, family, love, youth, time, furries. Not to mention the number of misfortunes I had faced before heading to Australia and during my stay there.

All my life I had dream of studying in Australia; for some unknown reasons, I had always thought I would study there and have always been working towards it. Now that I am given the chance to actually fulfill my dreams of studying there, I am starting to doubt my own decision. I dread the arrival of the day I leave.

The day Chinese New Year ends shall be the day I return to Australia. It feels scary to know that my days are numbered. To speak the truth, I feel a great sense of uncertainty. The fact that Australia is currently plagued with natural disaster adds on to my anxiety.

I wish the festive season will not end. I wish there is a good reason for me to stay. I wish someone can tell me not to leave. I wish ..... you will ask me to stay for you ...

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