Thursday, May 26, 2011
I've Moved ...
and will most probably not blog here anymore ... Got a new blog but have yet to do it up ... Give me some time and I'll do it over the June holidays ... Meanwhile, drop me a mesage if you will like to know my new address
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Forget, Forgetting, Forgotten
I can't believe I actually forgot the login ID for this blog and after trying very hard to recall, I got the password wrong.
Why am I forgetting things that I didn't intend to while I can't seem to forget things that I try very hard to? Am I trying not hard enough or sub-consciously I am reluctant to let it go?
Sometimes, I really wish I'd get into some accident and have amnesia, retaining selective memories; only memories that I will like to hold on to and memories that once made me happy.
If only you never appeared in my life ... If .....
Why am I forgetting things that I didn't intend to while I can't seem to forget things that I try very hard to? Am I trying not hard enough or sub-consciously I am reluctant to let it go?
Sometimes, I really wish I'd get into some accident and have amnesia, retaining selective memories; only memories that I will like to hold on to and memories that once made me happy.
If only you never appeared in my life ... If .....
I'm Moody. Leave me alone!
I'm feeling very moody. This isn't the result of hormonal imbalances even though I am having my period now. It's just the things my housemates said and did that tapped my nerves and I felt kinda upset and angry even though I didn't flare up. Instead, I was just calm and kinda emotionless.
However, that was only the catalyst. Something else she said lead to a string of cognitive processes that got me really down now. I feel like whining/crying to someone but I realised there isn't anyone (1) who's awake at this time, (2) who understands the situation I'm in and why I'm feeling like that (3) who's free to 'entertain me' (4) who I can trust and (5) who I can speak openly and freely to. Usually, when I have feelings like this, I'll call home in hope that my negative feelings will be alleviated a little by listening to someone's voice or basically, any of my close friends or family. Somehow, that didn't work for today.
I hope no one steps on my toes in the next few days by upsetting me any further. This can prove to be a little tough at times when I am living in a 'close knitted community'. The only way I can go about it is to socially isolate myself for a few days and hopefully, I will recover by then.
However, that was only the catalyst. Something else she said lead to a string of cognitive processes that got me really down now. I feel like whining/crying to someone but I realised there isn't anyone (1) who's awake at this time, (2) who understands the situation I'm in and why I'm feeling like that (3) who's free to 'entertain me' (4) who I can trust and (5) who I can speak openly and freely to. Usually, when I have feelings like this, I'll call home in hope that my negative feelings will be alleviated a little by listening to someone's voice or basically, any of my close friends or family. Somehow, that didn't work for today.
I hope no one steps on my toes in the next few days by upsetting me any further. This can prove to be a little tough at times when I am living in a 'close knitted community'. The only way I can go about it is to socially isolate myself for a few days and hopefully, I will recover by then.
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