A worried woman went to her gynecologist and said:
"Doctor, I have a serious problem and desperately need your help! My baby is not even 1 yr. old and I'm pregnant again. I don't want kids so close together."
So the doctor said: 'Ok, and what do you want me to do?'
She said: 'I want you to end my pregnancy, and I'm counting on your help with this.'
The doctor thought for a little, and after some silence he said to the lady: "I think, I have a better solution for your problem. It's less dangerous for you too."
She smiled, thinking that the doctor was going to accept her request.
Then he continued: 'You see, in order for you not to have to take care of 2 babies at the same time, let's kill the one in your arms. This way, you could rest some before the other one is born. If we're going to kill one of them, it doesn't matter which one it is. There would be no risk for your body if you chose the one in your arms."
The lady was horrified and said: 'No doctor! How terrible! It's a crime to kill a child!
'I agree', the doctor replied. 'But you seemed to be ok with it, so I thought maybe that was the best solution.
The doctor smiled, realizing that he had made his point. He convinced the mom that there is no difference in killing a child that's already been born and one that's still in the womb. The crime is the same!
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Monday, September 14, 2009
Of Love & Multiple Choice Options
My social psychology lecturer was broaching the topic on 'Attractions' and he counted a case which he handled during marriage counseling. This involved a couple who have two young children. The couple started courtship since their secondary school days. They were each others' first love. Things progressed on till the day they gotten married and started their own family. One fine day, the husband shocked his wife by serving him the separation papers. She could not understand what went wrong, neither could she accept the fact that her husband wanted a divorce out of the blue. In a bid to save their marriage, they decided to seek the help of a marriage counselor.
After understanding the whole situation, my lecturer (who is a practicing psychologist and holds a doctorate) decided to speak to the couple separately and started by asking the husband why did he marry his wife. He replied honestly he doesn't know why but things progressed on and getting married was the most natural thing to do. My lecturer started asking if he loves his wife and he responded by saying he wasn't sure.
My lecturer pressed on for details and after pondering for a moment, the husband replied, saying "I'm not sure if she's the one for me." Shocked, my lecturer asked "What do you mean by you are not sure if she's the one for you when you are already married with two kids !?!" The man retorted by saying "How would I know if she's really the one for me when she's the only woman I have dated in the whole of my life?
Ridiculous as it may sound, this is what happens when you do not have options in life. You have no idea what is the best and neither will you know what you will like best. You have got to have multiple choice options and you eliminate what you do not like and choose what you like the most. Without the options, you may just blindly select the only option without much considerations. This was what my lecturer said and it got me thinking.
He continued by saying "I told his wife this, 'you husband needs multiple choice options before he knows if he really wants to be with you. If he decides to come back to you, will you accept him again?'"
If you were the wife, will you accept that husband again?
Subsequently, my lecturer mentioned that he has seen a few such cases and such cases are getting more common. He repeatedly mention the importance of having multiple options before deciding on the best option. He said "if A is not what you want, then choose B. If B is not you want, then eliminate it and select C. If C is not what you desire, then settle for D!"
However, he did not tell me what should I do if I decide that A is still the best after being together with B, C and D. Should I go back for A, or should I try finding an option E?
Sighs. Such is life. It continued to get me thinking for a loooooooong time.
And my chained of thoughts reminded me of a friend.
That friend of mine is in the midst of applying for a HDB flat and intends to wed just before she gets the keys to her flat. However, she wasn't feeling her happiest. I couldn't comprehend why she sounded depress even though she was preparing for a joyous occasion. It was only through a common friend of ours did I learn the truth; even though her husband-to-be was a nice person, she still misses her ex-boyfriend. She feels that she had stronger feelings for her ex-boyfriend and she might have loved him more (than her currant boyfriend). However, due to certain circumstances she wasn't able to be with her ex-boyfriend. Even though her husband-to-be was not the one she loves most, he was someone she could rely on and was comfortable with. He was someone who would make a good husband, giving her a sense of secure.
Like my mum used to say, 'the person you love most may not be the person you marry and that the person you marry may not be the person you love most'.
It makes me wonder, how many people actually marry the person they love most? Will I end up like my friend? Will I find happiness? Define happiness then.
Can someone/anyone/everyone comment on my post via my tagboard?
After understanding the whole situation, my lecturer (who is a practicing psychologist and holds a doctorate) decided to speak to the couple separately and started by asking the husband why did he marry his wife. He replied honestly he doesn't know why but things progressed on and getting married was the most natural thing to do. My lecturer started asking if he loves his wife and he responded by saying he wasn't sure.
My lecturer pressed on for details and after pondering for a moment, the husband replied, saying "I'm not sure if she's the one for me." Shocked, my lecturer asked "What do you mean by you are not sure if she's the one for you when you are already married with two kids !?!" The man retorted by saying "How would I know if she's really the one for me when she's the only woman I have dated in the whole of my life?
Ridiculous as it may sound, this is what happens when you do not have options in life. You have no idea what is the best and neither will you know what you will like best. You have got to have multiple choice options and you eliminate what you do not like and choose what you like the most. Without the options, you may just blindly select the only option without much considerations. This was what my lecturer said and it got me thinking.
He continued by saying "I told his wife this, 'you husband needs multiple choice options before he knows if he really wants to be with you. If he decides to come back to you, will you accept him again?'"
If you were the wife, will you accept that husband again?
Subsequently, my lecturer mentioned that he has seen a few such cases and such cases are getting more common. He repeatedly mention the importance of having multiple options before deciding on the best option. He said "if A is not what you want, then choose B. If B is not you want, then eliminate it and select C. If C is not what you desire, then settle for D!"
However, he did not tell me what should I do if I decide that A is still the best after being together with B, C and D. Should I go back for A, or should I try finding an option E?
Sighs. Such is life. It continued to get me thinking for a loooooooong time.
And my chained of thoughts reminded me of a friend.
That friend of mine is in the midst of applying for a HDB flat and intends to wed just before she gets the keys to her flat. However, she wasn't feeling her happiest. I couldn't comprehend why she sounded depress even though she was preparing for a joyous occasion. It was only through a common friend of ours did I learn the truth; even though her husband-to-be was a nice person, she still misses her ex-boyfriend. She feels that she had stronger feelings for her ex-boyfriend and she might have loved him more (than her currant boyfriend). However, due to certain circumstances she wasn't able to be with her ex-boyfriend. Even though her husband-to-be was not the one she loves most, he was someone she could rely on and was comfortable with. He was someone who would make a good husband, giving her a sense of secure.
Like my mum used to say, 'the person you love most may not be the person you marry and that the person you marry may not be the person you love most'.
It makes me wonder, how many people actually marry the person they love most? Will I end up like my friend? Will I find happiness? Define happiness then.
Can someone/anyone/everyone comment on my post via my tagboard?
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Vanish
I always find myself in crappish situations. I wonder if everyone else is like that, or is it just me. At times, I feel trapped and often, I feel guilty. I wish that I can just disappear at click of my fingers.
Friday, September 11, 2009
Why You Shouldn't Add Your Mum on FB
This is how scary an E-Mom can be!
Facebook, Twitter Revolutionizing How Parents Stalk Their College-Aged Kids
Facebook, Twitter Revolutionizing How Parents Stalk Their College-Aged Kids
Friday, September 4, 2009
I Love My Folks
I have always been proud and thankful for my parents, even though I rarely mention it.
I am thankful that my parents are supportive of me caring for the strays. In fact, they are the ones who go feed the strays in my estate (they practice responsible feeding) and inform me if any of the strays look or injured. On top of that, my parents pay for almost all of the bills that the strays incur during visits to the vet.
On rare chances, I will bring home the injured strays and nurse them (though this may prove to be a challenge now as there are way too many furries residing in my house right now). Even though my parents do not really fancy that idea, they still bore with me and the incessant noise the strays make.
Never once did they blame me for giving them so much 'value-added' problems or tell me to 'leave the strays alone/abandon them'. Neither did they scold me for spending so much time at the vets or petrol transporting the strays.
When I showed them pictures of abused animals or incidents where strays were involved in accidents, they will sympathise with the strays and give comments like "How can one be so cruel?". At times, they will even donate money for medical fundings even though my parents may be worrying about the increasing household expenses.
These are my parents; kind and compassionate with a big heart for the less advantage to both humans or animals. I am happy to inherit such good traits and learn such good acts of kindness from them. This is definately something I expect my partner to possess, and my kids to inherit.
I am thankful that my parents are supportive of me caring for the strays. In fact, they are the ones who go feed the strays in my estate (they practice responsible feeding) and inform me if any of the strays look or injured. On top of that, my parents pay for almost all of the bills that the strays incur during visits to the vet.
On rare chances, I will bring home the injured strays and nurse them (though this may prove to be a challenge now as there are way too many furries residing in my house right now). Even though my parents do not really fancy that idea, they still bore with me and the incessant noise the strays make.
Never once did they blame me for giving them so much 'value-added' problems or tell me to 'leave the strays alone/abandon them'. Neither did they scold me for spending so much time at the vets or petrol transporting the strays.
When I showed them pictures of abused animals or incidents where strays were involved in accidents, they will sympathise with the strays and give comments like "How can one be so cruel?". At times, they will even donate money for medical fundings even though my parents may be worrying about the increasing household expenses.
These are my parents; kind and compassionate with a big heart for the less advantage to both humans or animals. I am happy to inherit such good traits and learn such good acts of kindness from them. This is definately something I expect my partner to possess, and my kids to inherit.
Thursday, September 3, 2009
That's Life
I know it's been eeeeeeeeeeeon years since I last updated.
Yours truly was very very very sick since Friday. Even though my fever subsided after taking two (strong) doses of antibiotics, I continued to feel feeble and weak. Most of the time, I was just sleeping. I barely had much appetite to eat. I finally took a rest from school, though it isn't the best reason to skip school. Even now, I get tired easily. I hope it isn't a case of the recurring viral infection from Bronchitis.
On a side note, I'm very sick of studying, reading journals and writing reports. I never, in the whole of my life, read and wrote so much. I read so much and so often that at times, I just habitually read without absorbing, until after a page later. Then, I have to re-read etc. When I first started studying, I pretty much enjoy it. However, after all the sheer mugging that rob me of my life and pleasure, I'm started to get quite sick of it.
I have the sudden urge to just quit school and set up a petshop business; selling pets supplies to consumers, feeding my strays pet food at cost price, bringing my furries to work, driving my own company's van with my furries pix, dedicating my life to my furries, doing what I truly love and blogging about the life that would be the envy of many.
Oh well, dreams and realities are worlds apart. I know.
*Slaps*
Back to reading journals, writing reports, cracking my brain, killing brain cells .............. ya da ya da ya da .......... and the story goes on ......
Yours truly was very very very sick since Friday. Even though my fever subsided after taking two (strong) doses of antibiotics, I continued to feel feeble and weak. Most of the time, I was just sleeping. I barely had much appetite to eat. I finally took a rest from school, though it isn't the best reason to skip school. Even now, I get tired easily. I hope it isn't a case of the recurring viral infection from Bronchitis.
On a side note, I'm very sick of studying, reading journals and writing reports. I never, in the whole of my life, read and wrote so much. I read so much and so often that at times, I just habitually read without absorbing, until after a page later. Then, I have to re-read etc. When I first started studying, I pretty much enjoy it. However, after all the sheer mugging that rob me of my life and pleasure, I'm started to get quite sick of it.
I have the sudden urge to just quit school and set up a petshop business; selling pets supplies to consumers, feeding my strays pet food at cost price, bringing my furries to work, driving my own company's van with my furries pix, dedicating my life to my furries, doing what I truly love and blogging about the life that would be the envy of many.
Oh well, dreams and realities are worlds apart. I know.
*Slaps*
Back to reading journals, writing reports, cracking my brain, killing brain cells .............. ya da ya da ya da .......... and the story goes on ......
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Where there is doubt, faith.
I was feeling pissed off about something insignificant and I felt worse knowing that I'm practically angry over nothing.
Then, someone told me about a prayer which I felt was very meaningful. Thus, I've decided to share it.
Lord, make me an instrument of your peace.
where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
where there is sadness, joy;
To be consoled as to console,
to be understood as to understand.
to be loved as to love;
for it is in giving that we receive;
It is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
It is in dying to self that we are born to eternal life
I'm going to bed feeling much happier, after sorting out some of my thoughts.
Nights all.
Then, someone told me about a prayer which I felt was very meaningful. Thus, I've decided to share it.
Lord, make me an instrument of your peace.
where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
where there is sadness, joy;
To be consoled as to console,
to be understood as to understand.
to be loved as to love;
for it is in giving that we receive;
It is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
It is in dying to self that we are born to eternal life
I'm going to bed feeling much happier, after sorting out some of my thoughts.
Nights all.
Monday, June 15, 2009
Uncertainty
I'm feeling a great sense of uncertainty. I have made a decision and I will either live to love it or live to regret it. I'm not sure if it was a wise one but since I've decided to go ahead with it, I shouldn't be looking back.
Since there's little I can do about it now, I guess I should just enjoy the moment and see how things go. Hope all will turn out well.
Since there's little I can do about it now, I guess I should just enjoy the moment and see how things go. Hope all will turn out well.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Words, Thoughts, Feelings
I'm someone who likes to keep thoughts and feelings to myself. Unlike most people, I find it difficult to speak to others about my problems or unhappiness. Even when I'm misunderstood, I'd usually prefer to remain silent because I always feel that, if someone chooses to think or feel negatively about me, it will be pointless for me to explain myself. I will seem as though I'm covering up for myself. So why bother to explain?
解释就是掩饰，不是吗？
I guess that's probably why I always feel so choked and suffocated; my emotional baggage is more than what I can handle and it doesn't seem to stop expanding.
Then, one fine day I chose to speak (unwillingly) but you kept interrupting me with either how you feel or posing me with leading questions. By doing so, it's obvious that your impression of me is already clouded by your judgment. Did you seriousl
To make matters worse, you chose to reveal whatever I said to a third party when you promised to keep things between us. I know, from your point of view that it may be for my/our welfare but honestly I will prefer to just keep things confidential. After all, that was what you promised me in the first place, wasn't it?
I feel like history is repeating itself, yet again. It takes me a long time to trust others comfortably enough for me to speak. It took an even greater courage for me to reveal parts of inner self. And you spoilt it by betraying my trust in you; the trust that you will keep things confidential.
I feel like such a fool. I don't know how I should react when I see you the next time. I really wish life will end at that instant. I'm so tired and sick of all these crap.
Just what am I living for?
Then again, maybe I'm just breathing, not living.
解释就是掩饰，不是吗？
I guess that's probably why I always feel so choked and suffocated; my emotional baggage is more than what I can handle and it doesn't seem to stop expanding.
Then, one fine day I chose to speak (unwillingly) but you kept interrupting me with either how you feel or posing me with leading questions. By doing so, it's obvious that your impression of me is already clouded by your judgment. Did you seriousl
y mean it when you said you won't be judgmental? I highly doubt so. Isn't it human nature to judge others? Why did I so stupidly choose to believe you. Just what was I thinking of?
To make matters worse, you chose to reveal whatever I said to a third party when you promised to keep things between us. I know, from your point of view that it may be for my/our welfare but honestly I will prefer to just keep things confidential. After all, that was what you promised me in the first place, wasn't it?
I feel like history is repeating itself, yet again. It takes me a long time to trust others comfortably enough for me to speak. It took an even greater courage for me to reveal parts of inner self. And you spoilt it by betraying my trust in you; the trust that you will keep things confidential.
I feel like such a fool. I don't know how I should react when I see you the next time. I really wish life will end at that instant. I'm so tired and sick of all these crap.
Just what am I living for?
Then again, maybe I'm just breathing, not living.
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
十句话
I read something meaningful and thought I should share it.
第一句
如果我们之间有1000步的距离
你只要跨出第1步
我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步
第二句
通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人
才是真正爱你的人
第三句
付出真心才会得到真心
却也可能伤得彻底
保持距离就能保护自己
却也注定永远寂寞
第四句
有时候不是对方不在乎你
而是你把对方看得太重
第五句
朋友就是把你看透了还能喜欢你的人
第六句
就算是believe中间也藏了一个 lie
第七句
真正的好朋友
并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题
而是在一起就算不说话
也不会感到尴尬
第八句
没有一百分的另一半
只有五十分的两个人
第九句
为你的难过而快乐的是敌人
为你的快乐而快乐的是朋友
为你的难过而难过的
就是那些该放进心里的人
第十句
冷漠有时候并不是无情
只是一种避免被伤害的工具
Monday, May 18, 2009
原来我没想象中那么快乐
我的好友，平曾经问过我一个假设性的问题。
他说：“如果有一天你死了，你最大的遗憾是什么？”
我思考了一番后便回答：“没什么遗憾，因为从我懂事以来，我都尽我能力，用心把每一件事做好, 所以没什么好遗憾的."
我还反问他：“尽力就好了，不是吗？”
但是, 我今天才发现原来尽力是不够的, 因为周遭的人想要看到的不是过程而是结果. 谁会在乎你经历过多少波折,费尽了多少心思,花了多少心血,吃了多少苦? 只有我们自己本身而已, 不是吗?
我顿了顿, 想了想: 我到底为什么而辛苦,为什么而忙碌, 为谁而痛苦. 是自己吗? 是身边的亲人吗？还是为了麻木的追求所谓的幸福？
那，我又为什么而活？活着的意义又是什么？
也许，可能我只是纯粹的生存而已．因为我认为我的生活毫无意义．
他说：“如果有一天你死了，你最大的遗憾是什么？”
我思考了一番后便回答：“没什么遗憾，因为从我懂事以来，我都尽我能力，用心把每一件事做好, 所以没什么好遗憾的."
我还反问他：“尽力就好了，不是吗？”
但是, 我今天才发现原来尽力是不够的, 因为周遭的人想要看到的不是过程而是结果. 谁会在乎你经历过多少波折,费尽了多少心思,花了多少心血,吃了多少苦? 只有我们自己本身而已, 不是吗?
我顿了顿, 想了想: 我到底为什么而辛苦,为什么而忙碌, 为谁而痛苦. 是自己吗? 是身边的亲人吗？还是为了麻木的追求所谓的幸福？
那，我又为什么而活？活着的意义又是什么？
也许，可能我只是纯粹的生存而已．因为我认为我的生活毫无意义．
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Isolation
I hate it when I have to be politically correct.
I hate it when I have to 'do the correct thing'.
I hate it when I have to live up to the expectations of others.
I hate it when I am being compared to others.
I hate it when I am being judged.
I hate it when I am a test subject.
I hate it when I am no longer in control of my own life.
I hate it when I don't have a say.
I hate it when I lose myself.
I hate it when I want to escape but I don't have a back route.
I hate it when I have nowhere to run to.
I hate it when I have to suppress my feelings.
I hate it when I can't express my emotions.
I hate it when no one understands.
I hate feeling suffocated.
I can't breathe.
I feel choked.
I think I should really isolate myself even though I might not like it.
I hate it when I have to 'do the correct thing'.
I hate it when I have to live up to the expectations of others.
I hate it when I am being compared to others.
I hate it when I am being judged.
I hate it when I am a test subject.
I hate it when I am no longer in control of my own life.
I hate it when I don't have a say.
I hate it when I lose myself.
I hate it when I want to escape but I don't have a back route.
I hate it when I have nowhere to run to.
I hate it when I have to suppress my feelings.
I hate it when I can't express my emotions.
I hate it when no one understands.
I hate feeling suffocated.
I can't breathe.
I feel choked.
I think I should really isolate myself even though I might not like it.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Importance of Communication
We always expect people to understand how we feel or why we react that way but most times we aren't that willing to share how we exactly feel, or what we are expecting. Such irony ya?
However, most of us aren't willing to display behaviours that reflect our emotions and speak how we feel. To some extent, we would prefer people to guess how we are feeling and what we would like things to be. We expect them to know what we want without telling much and the other party will always wished that you'll be more direct so that they will not land themselves into some 'mind game'.
But isn't life a chore when its so straightforward. Imagine describing each and every single detail of your thought process and emotional state. Everything will become so routine and boring. Then, you wouldn't take the effort to spend time interacting with another person, observe their personality traits, interests, likes, dislikes and such.
I read an article written by this columnist who commented that she isn't a great fan of writing notes on facebook, as it is a short cut to knowing your friends; minimal effort to know more thus allowing lesser time for interaction. She feels that one should spend quality (and quantity) with each other so that more can be discovered of each other through time spent and communication.
However, there are some behaviours you won't display (or rather you choose not to display) in front of friends under most circumstances and there are some things you wouldn't mention in conversations.
Take for instance, most of my close friends and family members did badly for "How well do you know me" quiz and failed terribly. These are the people who have spent a great bulk of time with me throughout my life. If such quizes never existed, most of them would not have known that I have once saved a cockroach, I detest eating tau sar pau (alot and I mean A LOT) and that I really love buying watches (selectively unique watches only).
Such quizes and notes aren't reflective of how much time one spend with his/her friends and/or love ones (though that doesn't explain why I'm upset that most of my friends failed the test).
We all wear a social mask to hide our most inner self. Wearing a social mask is akin to wearing clothes. We aren't that keen to remove it in front of others. Imagine being stark naked in front of others? Not many people like that idea of being a see-through as we are most vulnerable at that stage.
I guess most of us will continue to be in this 'mind game' of guessing until the day when humans have entire trust and faith in each other. The day when evil is history. Will that day ever come?
However, most of us aren't willing to display behaviours that reflect our emotions and speak how we feel. To some extent, we would prefer people to guess how we are feeling and what we would like things to be. We expect them to know what we want without telling much and the other party will always wished that you'll be more direct so that they will not land themselves into some 'mind game'.
But isn't life a chore when its so straightforward. Imagine describing each and every single detail of your thought process and emotional state. Everything will become so routine and boring. Then, you wouldn't take the effort to spend time interacting with another person, observe their personality traits, interests, likes, dislikes and such.
I read an article written by this columnist who commented that she isn't a great fan of writing notes on facebook, as it is a short cut to knowing your friends; minimal effort to know more thus allowing lesser time for interaction. She feels that one should spend quality (and quantity) with each other so that more can be discovered of each other through time spent and communication.
However, there are some behaviours you won't display (or rather you choose not to display) in front of friends under most circumstances and there are some things you wouldn't mention in conversations.
Take for instance, most of my close friends and family members did badly for "How well do you know me" quiz and failed terribly. These are the people who have spent a great bulk of time with me throughout my life. If such quizes never existed, most of them would not have known that I have once saved a cockroach, I detest eating tau sar pau (alot and I mean A LOT) and that I really love buying watches (selectively unique watches only).
Such quizes and notes aren't reflective of how much time one spend with his/her friends and/or love ones (though that doesn't explain why I'm upset that most of my friends failed the test).
We all wear a social mask to hide our most inner self. Wearing a social mask is akin to wearing clothes. We aren't that keen to remove it in front of others. Imagine being stark naked in front of others? Not many people like that idea of being a see-through as we are most vulnerable at that stage.
I guess most of us will continue to be in this 'mind game' of guessing until the day when humans have entire trust and faith in each other. The day when evil is history. Will that day ever come?
Friday, April 3, 2009
Cycle of Life
I know of this man (let's name him A) who misleads people and cheat them of money through loopholes. Many people fell prey to his tricks and a handful of them were my friends. I would/could have been a potential victim.
Police reports were made but there weren't enough evidences to warrant a search or arrest. For the following year or two, there were discussions of how to seek back the lost money and how to prevent more people from falling prey. However, all these required money; money to hire lawyers, money to hire private investigators, so on and so forth. Being cheated of a large sum of money, most of them could not afford to fork out more and thus, things were left at that.
When A started to 'expand' his business (probably with the money cheated) and received several media reports and coverage, more people became his victims. These caused much frustration to many people as they felt helpless.
Then, something shocking happened.
I flipped through the newspaper and found out that the A's son was badly injured in a car accident and is currently in ICU (Intensive Care Unit). The worse thing was he got knocked down by an oncoming vehicle while alighting his car to save someone. He almost lost his life while being the Good Samaritan.
At that instant, I wondered if his father's wrong doings had its effects on his son. In other words, his son is paying for his father's bad deeds. 父债子还。
I strongly believe in 'whatever goes around, comes around'.
Since young, I was constantly reminded not to do bad deeds at others because these will have its effects on us and if we are born a good life, these evil doings will not be 'retributed' on us. Instead, our future generations will suffer from it. Therefore, I was always told to 积德，积善. In simple english, it means retain moral and accumulate kindness. I was also told be kind with my words and not to curse others. 积口德。
Throughout my life, I remember the teachings of my parents and teachers. They always tell me that I reap what I sow; if I had wanted something, I have got to put in due effort and hard work. Being a chinese, I was also taught this phrase: “种瓜得瓜，种果得果”.
Having brought up in a multi-racial and multi-culture society, I am exposed to several religions and there were some similar teachings that I found.
In the Bible Galatians 6:8, it is mention that "For what things a man shall sow, those also shall he reap".
According the Sanskrit, Karma is a cycle of cause and effect.
佛教常说 “因果循环”．
What do you think?
Police reports were made but there weren't enough evidences to warrant a search or arrest. For the following year or two, there were discussions of how to seek back the lost money and how to prevent more people from falling prey. However, all these required money; money to hire lawyers, money to hire private investigators, so on and so forth. Being cheated of a large sum of money, most of them could not afford to fork out more and thus, things were left at that.
When A started to 'expand' his business (probably with the money cheated) and received several media reports and coverage, more people became his victims. These caused much frustration to many people as they felt helpless.
Then, something shocking happened.
I flipped through the newspaper and found out that the A's son was badly injured in a car accident and is currently in ICU (Intensive Care Unit). The worse thing was he got knocked down by an oncoming vehicle while alighting his car to save someone. He almost lost his life while being the Good Samaritan.
At that instant, I wondered if his father's wrong doings had its effects on his son. In other words, his son is paying for his father's bad deeds. 父债子还。
I strongly believe in 'whatever goes around, comes around'.
Since young, I was constantly reminded not to do bad deeds at others because these will have its effects on us and if we are born a good life, these evil doings will not be 'retributed' on us. Instead, our future generations will suffer from it. Therefore, I was always told to 积德，积善. In simple english, it means retain moral and accumulate kindness. I was also told be kind with my words and not to curse others. 积口德。
Throughout my life, I remember the teachings of my parents and teachers. They always tell me that I reap what I sow; if I had wanted something, I have got to put in due effort and hard work. Being a chinese, I was also taught this phrase: “种瓜得瓜，种果得果”.
Having brought up in a multi-racial and multi-culture society, I am exposed to several religions and there were some similar teachings that I found.
In the Bible Galatians 6:8, it is mention that "For what things a man shall sow, those also shall he reap".
According the Sanskrit, Karma is a cycle of cause and effect.
佛教常说 “因果循环”．
What do you think?
Monday, March 30, 2009
Take a Deep Breath & Relax
I was on the way back from work one day and I stopped to admire the beautiful sunset. While attempting to capture a nice shot of (what I thought was) a scenic view, I attracted quite a bit of attention from several passerby who were on their way home from work.
I have to admit that this isn't the most beautiful or desirable sunset. However, it's not the picture itself that determined the beautiful scene, it was the frame of mind I was in. I suddenly stopped walking at a place and time when everyone was rushing to and fro. At that instant, I wondered why was I rushing, for whom am I rushing and what am I rushing for? This phrase came to my mind “整天忙忙碌碌，为的是什么？”
Monday, March 16, 2009
Hooked on Antibiotics
My body's hooked on antibiotics. It's so reliant on antibiotics that each time I'm off it, I tend to fall ill. I usually tolerate my illnesses if they are minor and put off seeing a doctor until I cannot resist the pain/agony/sufferings of the illnesses.
I realised that I've been on and off antibiotics since I contracted bronchitis. It's been 2 years and within this period of time, I do not remember not consuming antibiotics for more than two months. It really makes me wonder if doctors are prescribing it too easily, or is my sickness really that bad (each time I fall ill) that antibiotics have to be prescribed.
That really makes me wonder every prescription of antibiotics is mandatory. I remember reading that people who live in the suburbs overseas (like USA) do not have easy access to clinics and hospital. They usually have to drive an hour or so to the hospital before they can see a doctor, thus most people self medicate when they fall ill and/or visit the drugstore (pharmacy) if they run out of medical supplies. They only see the doctor when they are seriously ill and/or if they do not recover after a prolong period of time. Since antibiotics requires a doctor's prescription in most (if not all) states, most people do not consume antibiotics unless it's absolutely necessary. [It can be read here how an expatriate parent worries about his/her young child being fed too much antibiotics.]
I remember reading an article which commented on our local doctors over-prescribing antibiotics. I do agree that antibiotics should be prescribed when needed, however I personally feel that antibiotics should not be prescribed as a preventive measure for other 'potential' bacteria infection.
I can't remember where I read it or who was it written by but I did a simple search online and found several articles that supported the one which I read previously. One of it is even released by SMA (Singapore Medical Association). The article can be read here.
I usually avoid consuming antibiotics when I'm running a fever without infection. (I recognised signs of infection when I start coughing phelgm or sneezing mucus that is yellowish green. However, these are relatively obvious symptoms. There are certain infection that does not display visible symptoms.) At times, I even avoid taking paracetamol or other forms of fever reducers as long as I do not feel extremely uncomfortable (like bad migraines and bad aches in joints) and that my body temperature maintains below 38 degrees. The main reason being, running fever (not high fever) has certain benefits to our health too. Read here for more information.
Thus, the next time when you fall ill, you have got to think twice before swallowing those pills.
Note: Please do not quote me whatever I have mentioned earlier in this post as I'm no medical expert.
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Anyway, you wouldn't believe it. I am sick again. Remember very bad eczema outbreak? It got better after I took a course of antibiotics but the moment I stop it, it started flaring again. Now, it seems to be worse than before. My skin around is practically oozing pus and other who-knows-what-fluid. It's so bad that the moment I apply pressure/force to my fingers, it hurts. I cannot even tap my finger nails lightly because there's a layer of pus between my nails and my flesh, causing it to hurt a lot, so much that I almost screamed.
I visited the dermatologist this afternoon and he has swab the pus before sending it to a laboratory. Identifying the bacteria and checking out which antibiotics it reacts best to are essential for drafting the treatment plan. Meanwhile, I'm given loads of antibiotics, steroids and antihistamine which I am pretty reluctant to take but do I have a choice given the current situation I am in? Not likely, especially when I am running a fever now.
I realised that I've been on and off antibiotics since I contracted bronchitis. It's been 2 years and within this period of time, I do not remember not consuming antibiotics for more than two months. It really makes me wonder if doctors are prescribing it too easily, or is my sickness really that bad (each time I fall ill) that antibiotics have to be prescribed.
That really makes me wonder every prescription of antibiotics is mandatory. I remember reading that people who live in the suburbs overseas (like USA) do not have easy access to clinics and hospital. They usually have to drive an hour or so to the hospital before they can see a doctor, thus most people self medicate when they fall ill and/or visit the drugstore (pharmacy) if they run out of medical supplies. They only see the doctor when they are seriously ill and/or if they do not recover after a prolong period of time. Since antibiotics requires a doctor's prescription in most (if not all) states, most people do not consume antibiotics unless it's absolutely necessary. [It can be read here how an expatriate parent worries about his/her young child being fed too much antibiotics.]
I remember reading an article which commented on our local doctors over-prescribing antibiotics. I do agree that antibiotics should be prescribed when needed, however I personally feel that antibiotics should not be prescribed as a preventive measure for other 'potential' bacteria infection.
I can't remember where I read it or who was it written by but I did a simple search online and found several articles that supported the one which I read previously. One of it is even released by SMA (Singapore Medical Association). The article can be read here.
I usually avoid consuming antibiotics when I'm running a fever without infection. (I recognised signs of infection when I start coughing phelgm or sneezing mucus that is yellowish green. However, these are relatively obvious symptoms. There are certain infection that does not display visible symptoms.) At times, I even avoid taking paracetamol or other forms of fever reducers as long as I do not feel extremely uncomfortable (like bad migraines and bad aches in joints) and that my body temperature maintains below 38 degrees. The main reason being, running fever (not high fever) has certain benefits to our health too. Read here for more information.
Thus, the next time when you fall ill, you have got to think twice before swallowing those pills.
Note: Please do not quote me whatever I have mentioned earlier in this post as I'm no medical expert.
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Anyway, you wouldn't believe it. I am sick again. Remember very bad eczema outbreak? It got better after I took a course of antibiotics but the moment I stop it, it started flaring again. Now, it seems to be worse than before. My skin around is practically oozing pus and other who-knows-what-fluid. It's so bad that the moment I apply pressure/force to my fingers, it hurts. I cannot even tap my finger nails lightly because there's a layer of pus between my nails and my flesh, causing it to hurt a lot, so much that I almost screamed.
I visited the dermatologist this afternoon and he has swab the pus before sending it to a laboratory. Identifying the bacteria and checking out which antibiotics it reacts best to are essential for drafting the treatment plan. Meanwhile, I'm given loads of antibiotics, steroids and antihistamine which I am pretty reluctant to take but do I have a choice given the current situation I am in? Not likely, especially when I am running a fever now.
Monday, March 2, 2009
Living with Eczema
I've been a 'victim' of eczema since 3 years of age and that has changed my life since. Back then, eczema was almost unheard of and my (paternal) relatives, especially my grandmother started blaming my mother for poor upbringing and/or 'passing bad genes' to me. They did nothing to help ease our sufferings (my eczema and my mum's guilt).
Those ignorant relatives of mine will insist that my mum bathes me several times a day, citing the hot weather after which, loads of talcum powder will be dusted on me. Little did they know that bathing excessively will cause my skin condition to worsen. In fact, the doctor recommends that I bath only once a day. As for talcum powder, it causes allergy reactions like rashes (part of eczema), asthma and rhinitis which often develops into sinusitis (conditions which they blame my mum as well).
My mum felt guilty and responsible for my plight, she brought me to various doctors all over the island, from traditional chinese medicine to western medicine, even traveling up north to Malaysia on train. After tonnes of awful, smelly, yucky, disgusting herbs and chemicals, I never was cured. Eczema, like many conditions can only be controlled and not cured.
Growing up with eczema was the most miserable thing ever. I was alone most of the time. Classmates and friends shunned me. Some meanies even mocked at me and got the rest to 'laugh' at me. Even my form teacher said "You didn't use to be like that!" She later spoke to my mother about it.
By then, my condition has worsened. I felt like a snake (honestly). My skin started peeling endlessly, from head to toe. Big pieces/chunks of dried skin dangles at the tip of my 'newly-grown' skin. (My classmates were so disgusted, they forbade me to turn my head for fear of my dry skin 'landing' on them, spreading some incurable disease.) There was once it became so bad that I could not even open my eyes. I started to detest looking in the mirror.
I remember some doctors commenting that the condition of my skin may improve after I reach puberty as a result of hormonal changes. I truly look forward to it. I couldn't wait for the 'so-called' puberty, even though I did not have an inkling idea of what it was.
When I contracted chicken pox at age 11, I was ecstatic. I was hoping it will have the same effect as 'puberty' would. I thought to myself "Well, since chicken pox is like a massive outbreak of rashes, maybe all the rashes that I was meant to suffer from will just affect me for two weeks and i'll be free from rashes/eczema!"
I was half correct. My condition of eczema improved. The outbreak of rashes wasn't as serious as before. Even if it was, I always had ways to cover it up. Thus, most of my friends were surprised when I told them that I have a skin condition. Some of them even look at me in disbelief when I told them so.
All until last week.
My hands (fingers especially) have been the 'latest victims' of eczema. For the past two years or so, my hands always have rashes with open wounds. Once in a while, my skin will heal from those wounds or rashes but each time I touch an allergen, it'll act up all over again.
Last Saturday, I realised that I could not bend my fingers and when I tried touching them, they felt like small little bumps. Thinking that it would be gone soon, I ignored it. A few hours later, I realised that I could not even unbuckle my seat belt. Anything that requires strength or force hurts greatly. Then, I took a good look at my fingers and I finally realised why.
My fingers were swollen (each finger is 30% larger than usual) and filled with pus and blisters. So many I lost count of them. They were too painful to touch. When the blisters burst, they will start sticking things like fibre, fur, hair, dust, dirt on my wound, which will only make it more susceptible to infection. I had to have them wrapped up. Even then, so much fluid and pus that came out of the blisters i had to keep changing my bandage. Removing the bandage was the worse part as the gauze would have stuck onto my skin and it requires a little effort to 'tear/pull' it off. At that instant, I felt as though I had a third-degree burnt on my hands.
Since then, I was almost like a handicap. Touching water caused great pain, not to mention soap and that means that I could not bathe for myself. I am thankful that my youngest sister helped me bathe yesterday and my mum help me bathe today. Though it sounds embarassing but I was fine with it. In fact, I was a little on the happy side. It's not often you get to have such moments and half the time, we were laughing away in the bath. (Maybe I should be thankful for falling ill. It's no wonder the chinese says 'xiao bing shi fu'.)
Right now, my skin still hurts from the pus filled blisters but at least the condition is improving. At least I get to blog this post (using only two fingers instead of the usual ten and spending almost two and a half hour doing so) when I had difficulties clickinf the mouse 2 days ago.
The doctor estimated that with medication, I will take approximately 5 days to recover. However, I think I will be seeing my family doctor tomorrow (my family doctor does not work on Sunday) as I think I am allergic to the antibiotics prescribed by the doctor yesterday. Moreover, my fever has yet to subside since Saturday.
Hope with the help of my family doctor, I'll heal/recover faster. At least he's familiar with my condition for I've been seeing him for some 10 years or so.
Meanwhile, I won't be blogging until I fully recover as it's too much a challenge for me to do so with my current condition. Don't miss me too much ya~
Those ignorant relatives of mine will insist that my mum bathes me several times a day, citing the hot weather after which, loads of talcum powder will be dusted on me. Little did they know that bathing excessively will cause my skin condition to worsen. In fact, the doctor recommends that I bath only once a day. As for talcum powder, it causes allergy reactions like rashes (part of eczema), asthma and rhinitis which often develops into sinusitis (conditions which they blame my mum as well).
My mum felt guilty and responsible for my plight, she brought me to various doctors all over the island, from traditional chinese medicine to western medicine, even traveling up north to Malaysia on train. After tonnes of awful, smelly, yucky, disgusting herbs and chemicals, I never was cured. Eczema, like many conditions can only be controlled and not cured.
Growing up with eczema was the most miserable thing ever. I was alone most of the time. Classmates and friends shunned me. Some meanies even mocked at me and got the rest to 'laugh' at me. Even my form teacher said "You didn't use to be like that!" She later spoke to my mother about it.
By then, my condition has worsened. I felt like a snake (honestly). My skin started peeling endlessly, from head to toe. Big pieces/chunks of dried skin dangles at the tip of my 'newly-grown' skin. (My classmates were so disgusted, they forbade me to turn my head for fear of my dry skin 'landing' on them, spreading some incurable disease.) There was once it became so bad that I could not even open my eyes. I started to detest looking in the mirror.
I remember some doctors commenting that the condition of my skin may improve after I reach puberty as a result of hormonal changes. I truly look forward to it. I couldn't wait for the 'so-called' puberty, even though I did not have an inkling idea of what it was.
When I contracted chicken pox at age 11, I was ecstatic. I was hoping it will have the same effect as 'puberty' would. I thought to myself "Well, since chicken pox is like a massive outbreak of rashes, maybe all the rashes that I was meant to suffer from will just affect me for two weeks and i'll be free from rashes/eczema!"
I was half correct. My condition of eczema improved. The outbreak of rashes wasn't as serious as before. Even if it was, I always had ways to cover it up. Thus, most of my friends were surprised when I told them that I have a skin condition. Some of them even look at me in disbelief when I told them so.
All until last week.
My hands (fingers especially) have been the 'latest victims' of eczema. For the past two years or so, my hands always have rashes with open wounds. Once in a while, my skin will heal from those wounds or rashes but each time I touch an allergen, it'll act up all over again.
Last Saturday, I realised that I could not bend my fingers and when I tried touching them, they felt like small little bumps. Thinking that it would be gone soon, I ignored it. A few hours later, I realised that I could not even unbuckle my seat belt. Anything that requires strength or force hurts greatly. Then, I took a good look at my fingers and I finally realised why.
My fingers were swollen (each finger is 30% larger than usual) and filled with pus and blisters. So many I lost count of them. They were too painful to touch. When the blisters burst, they will start sticking things like fibre, fur, hair, dust, dirt on my wound, which will only make it more susceptible to infection. I had to have them wrapped up. Even then, so much fluid and pus that came out of the blisters i had to keep changing my bandage. Removing the bandage was the worse part as the gauze would have stuck onto my skin and it requires a little effort to 'tear/pull' it off. At that instant, I felt as though I had a third-degree burnt on my hands.
Since then, I was almost like a handicap. Touching water caused great pain, not to mention soap and that means that I could not bathe for myself. I am thankful that my youngest sister helped me bathe yesterday and my mum help me bathe today. Though it sounds embarassing but I was fine with it. In fact, I was a little on the happy side. It's not often you get to have such moments and half the time, we were laughing away in the bath. (Maybe I should be thankful for falling ill. It's no wonder the chinese says 'xiao bing shi fu'.)
Right now, my skin still hurts from the pus filled blisters but at least the condition is improving. At least I get to blog this post (using only two fingers instead of the usual ten and spending almost two and a half hour doing so) when I had difficulties clickinf the mouse 2 days ago.
The doctor estimated that with medication, I will take approximately 5 days to recover. However, I think I will be seeing my family doctor tomorrow (my family doctor does not work on Sunday) as I think I am allergic to the antibiotics prescribed by the doctor yesterday. Moreover, my fever has yet to subside since Saturday.
Hope with the help of my family doctor, I'll heal/recover faster. At least he's familiar with my condition for I've been seeing him for some 10 years or so.
Meanwhile, I won't be blogging until I fully recover as it's too much a challenge for me to do so with my current condition. Don't miss me too much ya~
Friday, February 13, 2009
M, M and more Ms!
Tagged by shuxia
Rules:
It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag ten people.
Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real...nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.
1. What is your name : M------
2. A four Letter Word : Muse (Subconsciously, I kept trying to think of vulgarities. Probably because f--k is usually referred to as the four letter word.)
3. A boy's Name : Merlin (I almost typed Merlion instead.)
4. A girl's Name : Melanie (Name of my best friend in primary school.)
5. An occupation : Magician (Liu Qian!)
6. A color : Maroon
7. Something you wear : Maximiser from Triumph (I don't own one but I really can't think of anything else that I wear that starts with M! Just in case you don't know, it's a series of bra launched by Triumph to 'enhance' your size.)
9. A food : Myojo Mee (My favourite! I detest Maggie Mee.)
10. Something found in the bathroom : Moisturiser
11. A place : Mt Alvernia Hospital (where I was born)
12. A reason for being late : Miss the bus. (Never fail to get scolded by teachers when I used this excuse, even if I'm speaking the truth.)
13. Something you shout : Menstrual Cramps! (Not when I'm in public though. Haha.)
14. A movie title : Mr. and Mrs. Smith
15. Something you drink : Milk
16. A musical group : Maroon 5
17. An animal : Mosquito (Many people's beloved.)
18. A street name : Mountbatten Road
19. A type of car : Murcielago (Lamborghini) My dream car. Woohoo~ (Click on the word Murcielago and you know what I'm talking about.)
20. The title of a song : My Valentine
Rules:
It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag ten people.
Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real...nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.
1. What is your name : M------
2. A four Letter Word : Muse (Subconsciously, I kept trying to think of vulgarities. Probably because f--k is usually referred to as the four letter word.)
3. A boy's Name : Merlin (I almost typed Merlion instead.)
4. A girl's Name : Melanie (Name of my best friend in primary school.)
5. An occupation : Magician (Liu Qian!)
6. A color : Maroon
7. Something you wear : Maximiser from Triumph (I don't own one but I really can't think of anything else that I wear that starts with M! Just in case you don't know, it's a series of bra launched by Triumph to 'enhance' your size.)
9. A food : Myojo Mee (My favourite! I detest Maggie Mee.)
10. Something found in the bathroom : Moisturiser
11. A place : Mt Alvernia Hospital (where I was born)
12. A reason for being late : Miss the bus. (Never fail to get scolded by teachers when I used this excuse, even if I'm speaking the truth.)
13. Something you shout : Menstrual Cramps! (Not when I'm in public though. Haha.)
14. A movie title : Mr. and Mrs. Smith
15. Something you drink : Milk
16. A musical group : Maroon 5
17. An animal : Mosquito (Many people's beloved.)
18. A street name : Mountbatten Road
19. A type of car : Murcielago (Lamborghini) My dream car. Woohoo~ (Click on the word Murcielago and you know what I'm talking about.)
20. The title of a song : My Valentine
Sunday, February 8, 2009
25 Random Things
I can't believe I'm being tagged for random things about myself (again), the only difference is this time round, I'm being tagged by peng & esther. I've no idea how many days will I take to complete it! If you didn't read my previous post, (for your info) I took 7 days to complete just 16 random things about me.
Okay, I'll try my best.
As usual, you are tagged if you
1. Know me in person
2. Own a blog
3. Reading my current post
4. Haven't been tagged 25 Random Things before
Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you!
[1.] Volunteer
I get very emotionally unbalanced/deprived (I just can't think of an exact word to describe my feeling) if I don't do volunteer work for a prolong period of time. I find myself searching for various overseas volunteer project that I can join. Not that there aren't any VWOs in Singapore, I just feel that people in 3rd world country need more help than those in our homeland. At least you don't hear of people dying in Singapore due to starvation.
[2.] Third World Countries
With reference to point 1; Even if I don't volunteer myself at these third world countries, I have the urge to travel to these places and have a feel of how their lives are and to learn about the culture. I've no idea where the urge comes from. (Alert: Calling for esther & peiwen!)
I secretly hope that one day, I'll be part of World Vision invovling in humanitarian relief/aid.
[3.] Sensitive
I am a highly sensitive person, literally. I have sensitive eyes, sensitive nose, sensitive skin and sensitive stomach. That explains why my eyes get eyes, nose, skin and stomach gets irritated easily, and that often results in more serious problems.
Did I mention that I'm a sensitive person on a whole? *grins*
[4.] Falling Sick
As a result of my sensitive organs and my weak immunity, I've always been taking medicine on a 'on off' basis since young. I am so familiar with my condition and sicknesses that when my sensitivity 'acts up' or when I fall sick, I know exactly what happens to me, what medication will be prescribed for me, the dosage of the medicine and whether I will be given an MC (if I am, I can estimate the number of days) before I even visit the doctor.
I use this set of 'knowledge' to treat myself when I have excess medication (from leftovers previously) and I don't need MC. I also use this set of 'knowledge' on my dogs; when they're ill, I self medicate them at times.
[5.] Smells
As a result of my sensitive nose (refer to point 3), I am highly sensitive to smells. I, or rathermy nose can easily detect what's boiling in the kitchen to what ingredients are used in the dishes.
[6.] Odours
Due to point 5, I react greatly to artificial frgrances; Most times, I sneeze endlessly when I smell perfumes, air fresheners or soaps (with strong fragrances like those from Crabtree & Evelyn). I smell odours easily too. Sometimes, these bad smells affect me so much that I feel nausea, especially when I take car rides with artificial fragrances or worse still, dried pandan leaves. I simply hate the smell of 'stale fragrances'.
[7.] Fishy Smells
Due to my highly sensitive nose, I have minimal tolerance for fishy smells. The fish I eat must be fresh and never smell fishy. I will puke (and I mean it) when I smell these unpleasant fishy smell. Thus, I'm very particular about the seafood and related products I eat. That's the same reason why the fish I eat must be skinless. The only exception is fried fish skin (those that are served in restaurants in Hong Kong).
[8.] Fish
Just to add on a little, I'm lousy at eating fish. The fish I eat must be boneless, otherwise I'll get someone to debone the fish that I eat. If not, I'll give the fish a skip or I'll smash the bone till I'm sure that there are no bones, then I'll eat it.
I have fear of swallowing fish bones.
I have no idea how some people are able to put a big slice of fish in their mouth and spit out many bones within a minute. I'll probably swallow half the amount of bones.
[9.] Beauty Products
For similar reasons (with reference to point 5), I do not use commercial beauty products such as those from The Body Shop. Moreover, most commercial products contain artificial colouring, preservatives and many other chemicals that I'm allergic to. Using these products will 'uglify' my looks instead of beautifying them.
[10.] Cosmetics
That's the reason why i only use certain brands of cosmetics. Even YSL cosmetics doesn't 'qualify' for my skin; I just had a rash outbreak using them last week.
[11.] Soft Toys
If you ever buy me soft toys as presents (for whatever ocassion), you sure do not know me well enough. Though I love soft toys, I'm usually upon receiving it because I'm highly sensitive person (refer to pont 3). I can neither hug these toys nor put them on my beds or shelves, because I'm highly sensitive to dirt and dust mites. Since soft toys are good at picking up dusts and are great breeding grounds for dust mites, it's suicidal to have one in close proximity with me.
[12.] Dresses
I like wearing dresses but I can hardly find one that i like that suits me. Even if I do, I seldom wear it because I look so out of place in a country where t-shits, shorts and slippers are the most common attire.
[13.] Berrets
I love wearing berrets. I've got a few of them with varying designs and materials (from leather to cloth to PVC) but I hardly ever wear them. I tried wearing a couple of times but I got weird stares that made me feel really uncomfortable, especially when I'm on public transports. That's the reason why I hardly ever wear them now.
[14.] Classical Music
I love classical music but I hardly mention it because my friends will frown upon me when I told them. I have no idea what pieces I'm listening to, what majors or minors they are in or which period of time do they belong to. I just know I enjoy listening to classical music and I get mesmerised by orchestras performing.
[15.] Charging Batteries
I HATE charging my gadgets, be it handphone, iPod touch, laptop, DS Lite, PSP, camera etc. As long as it requires charging, I simply detest it. I dread it even more when different gadgets require different chargers and I have to keep these wires and plugs neat in places that are reachable.
There was a period of time I didn't play my DS Lite and PSP simply because I didn't feel like charging them. That's the same reason why my handphone is unreachable at times; it's off because it's left uncharged.
I wish all gadgets have a universal charger or better still, charge using solar energy. Life will be a bliss for me then.
[16.] Gadgets
I won't die if my IT gadgets die on me, simply because I'm not reliant on them. To me, they are just conveniences. If there's no internet, no handphone, no computer, no mp3 player, I can still continue living at ease without discomfort. In fact, I think life without a handphone is good; I have the urge to not re-contract my phone line at times.
I think the people around me will die faster trying to contact me =X
(For some reasons, people around me are always trying to reach me. Ahems. )
[17.] Facebook
I think Facebook is really scary; people can literally stalk me and track what I'm doing without actually knowing me in reality. It became so horrifying (to me) that I had the urge to delete all photos of myself or deleting my account altogether.
[18.] Tired but Awake
I have this bad habit of not wanting to sleep even though I'm dead tired. I have no idea why. I will really like to kick this habit (even though a part of me is unwilling to), simply because it's taking a toll on my health.
I'm always tired and not sleeping enough. I think 24 hours is not enough for my use. It could be that or just bad time management on my part.
[19.] Indecisive Procrastinator
I'm a great indecisive procrastinator who cannot stop procrastinating when making decisions. Just look at the progress of my study plans and you'll know.
[20.] Bus vs Train
I dislike taking the train, especially during peak hours. It's during these rush hours that you have difficulty identifying whether strangers take advantage of you with the intention to, or did they fall accidentally on you due to the momentum of the train.
I'd very much prefer to travel on the bus. I miss those days when non-aircon buses were everywhere. I love sitting by the window (especially on the upper deck of double deckers) with the windows wide opened. I simply can't resist the feeling of cool wind blowing against my face. Woah~ I like sitting on the left seats, unless the sun is shining in from that window. I'll usually get migraines if the sun shines strongly with the aircon blasting me.
Anyway that's partially the reason why I chose NP over SP.
[21.] Endless Tears
Crying is my 'universal' way of expressing myself. I cry when I'm happy, sad, frustrated, irritated, angry and frustrated (especially).
I know many people who know me will find it hard to believe.
[22.] Strays
My parents and I care for the cat population that resides near my block. My parents practice responsible feeding and at the same time, observe the cats for sickness or injuries.
If any of the cats are sick or wounded, I'll be the one who double check on their condition and decides if their condition is serious enough to be brought to the vet. I'm also responsible for sending the cats to the vet and cleaning up their wounds if the cats are not hospitalised. Sometimes, he will help me with it too.
Sad to say, one of the cats that I brought to the vet was a victim of abuse. Good thing was, she survived.
[23.] Trap Neuter Return/Release
Though I'm not exactly comfortable with the thought of sterilising animals, I still proceed to sterilise the stray cats. The deal is this, if sterilising the cats can save their lives then why not?
For your information, our local authorities euthanise an alarming number of stray cats and dogs so as to 'curb' their population and to appease complainants (who complain against these cats and dogs). It used to be the case whereby sterilised cats and dogs will not be captured and euthanised, but now the authorities seem to pay little attention to that.
However, we still continue to practice TNRM in hope that the stray population can be controlled and that euthanisia will stop taking place. Taking care of strays are years of time, efforts, hardwork and money. Stray feeders fork out money for food, sterilisation, vet fees and medication out of their own pockets. Many still innocently thought that stray feeders are sponspored and backed up by charity welfare organisations.
Anyway, for the best interest of people who hae no idea what euthanisia is. Euthanisia is the killing of animals (usually) with lethal injection that is supposedly 'pain free'. Put to sleep is another term for euthanisia.
Note: Please don't debate/argue with me on how cruel or inhumane sterilisation is. If you think sterilisation is cruel, then how humane is it to euthanise animals that are in the pink of health?
[24.] Bulk Purchase
As I refuse to compromise on the quality of pet food I feed my furries with, I have to do so on cost saving, thus I practice economy of scale when purchasing pet food supplies. I always try to source for the best deals at both brick & mortar and online pet shops. Every cent count with the number of (furry) mouths my family and I have got to feed.
I usually purchase dog food, cat food and rabbit food in cartons or the biggest pack available. You can drop me a message if you'll like to purchase cheaper quality pet food. I can share with you what brand of food I feeding my furries with and how much cheaper they cost than the usual market price.
[25.] Long Winded
I think I'm pretty long winded when writing random stuff about myself. I realise that most people write each point with only one sentence, while I usually write more than one paragraph, explaining every single point. Maybe I'll try not to be so long winded the next time. Try.
Okay, I'll try my best.
As usual, you are tagged if you
1. Know me in person
2. Own a blog
3. Reading my current post
4. Haven't been tagged 25 Random Things before
Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you!
[1.] Volunteer
I get very emotionally unbalanced/deprived (I just can't think of an exact word to describe my feeling) if I don't do volunteer work for a prolong period of time. I find myself searching for various overseas volunteer project that I can join. Not that there aren't any VWOs in Singapore, I just feel that people in 3rd world country need more help than those in our homeland. At least you don't hear of people dying in Singapore due to starvation.
[2.] Third World Countries
With reference to point 1; Even if I don't volunteer myself at these third world countries, I have the urge to travel to these places and have a feel of how their lives are and to learn about the culture. I've no idea where the urge comes from. (Alert: Calling for esther & peiwen!)
I secretly hope that one day, I'll be part of World Vision invovling in humanitarian relief/aid.
[3.] Sensitive
I am a highly sensitive person, literally. I have sensitive eyes, sensitive nose, sensitive skin and sensitive stomach. That explains why my eyes get eyes, nose, skin and stomach gets irritated easily, and that often results in more serious problems.
Did I mention that I'm a sensitive person on a whole? *grins*
[4.] Falling Sick
As a result of my sensitive organs and my weak immunity, I've always been taking medicine on a 'on off' basis since young. I am so familiar with my condition and sicknesses that when my sensitivity 'acts up' or when I fall sick, I know exactly what happens to me, what medication will be prescribed for me, the dosage of the medicine and whether I will be given an MC (if I am, I can estimate the number of days) before I even visit the doctor.
I use this set of 'knowledge' to treat myself when I have excess medication (from leftovers previously) and I don't need MC. I also use this set of 'knowledge' on my dogs; when they're ill, I self medicate them at times.
[5.] Smells
As a result of my sensitive nose (refer to point 3), I am highly sensitive to smells. I, or rathermy nose can easily detect what's boiling in the kitchen to what ingredients are used in the dishes.
[6.] Odours
Due to point 5, I react greatly to artificial frgrances; Most times, I sneeze endlessly when I smell perfumes, air fresheners or soaps (with strong fragrances like those from Crabtree & Evelyn). I smell odours easily too. Sometimes, these bad smells affect me so much that I feel nausea, especially when I take car rides with artificial fragrances or worse still, dried pandan leaves. I simply hate the smell of 'stale fragrances'.
[7.] Fishy Smells
Due to my highly sensitive nose, I have minimal tolerance for fishy smells. The fish I eat must be fresh and never smell fishy. I will puke (and I mean it) when I smell these unpleasant fishy smell. Thus, I'm very particular about the seafood and related products I eat. That's the same reason why the fish I eat must be skinless. The only exception is fried fish skin (those that are served in restaurants in Hong Kong).
[8.] Fish
Just to add on a little, I'm lousy at eating fish. The fish I eat must be boneless, otherwise I'll get someone to debone the fish that I eat. If not, I'll give the fish a skip or I'll smash the bone till I'm sure that there are no bones, then I'll eat it.
I have fear of swallowing fish bones.
I have no idea how some people are able to put a big slice of fish in their mouth and spit out many bones within a minute. I'll probably swallow half the amount of bones.
[9.] Beauty Products
For similar reasons (with reference to point 5), I do not use commercial beauty products such as those from The Body Shop. Moreover, most commercial products contain artificial colouring, preservatives and many other chemicals that I'm allergic to. Using these products will 'uglify' my looks instead of beautifying them.
[10.] Cosmetics
That's the reason why i only use certain brands of cosmetics. Even YSL cosmetics doesn't 'qualify' for my skin; I just had a rash outbreak using them last week.
[11.] Soft Toys
If you ever buy me soft toys as presents (for whatever ocassion), you sure do not know me well enough. Though I love soft toys, I'm usually upon receiving it because I'm highly sensitive person (refer to pont 3). I can neither hug these toys nor put them on my beds or shelves, because I'm highly sensitive to dirt and dust mites. Since soft toys are good at picking up dusts and are great breeding grounds for dust mites, it's suicidal to have one in close proximity with me.
[12.] Dresses
I like wearing dresses but I can hardly find one that i like that suits me. Even if I do, I seldom wear it because I look so out of place in a country where t-shits, shorts and slippers are the most common attire.
[13.] Berrets
I love wearing berrets. I've got a few of them with varying designs and materials (from leather to cloth to PVC) but I hardly ever wear them. I tried wearing a couple of times but I got weird stares that made me feel really uncomfortable, especially when I'm on public transports. That's the reason why I hardly ever wear them now.
[14.] Classical Music
I love classical music but I hardly mention it because my friends will frown upon me when I told them. I have no idea what pieces I'm listening to, what majors or minors they are in or which period of time do they belong to. I just know I enjoy listening to classical music and I get mesmerised by orchestras performing.
[15.] Charging Batteries
I HATE charging my gadgets, be it handphone, iPod touch, laptop, DS Lite, PSP, camera etc. As long as it requires charging, I simply detest it. I dread it even more when different gadgets require different chargers and I have to keep these wires and plugs neat in places that are reachable.
There was a period of time I didn't play my DS Lite and PSP simply because I didn't feel like charging them. That's the same reason why my handphone is unreachable at times; it's off because it's left uncharged.
I wish all gadgets have a universal charger or better still, charge using solar energy. Life will be a bliss for me then.
[16.] Gadgets
I won't die if my IT gadgets die on me, simply because I'm not reliant on them. To me, they are just conveniences. If there's no internet, no handphone, no computer, no mp3 player, I can still continue living at ease without discomfort. In fact, I think life without a handphone is good; I have the urge to not re-contract my phone line at times.
I think the people around me will die faster trying to contact me =X
(For some reasons, people around me are always trying to reach me. Ahems. )
[17.] Facebook
I think Facebook is really scary; people can literally stalk me and track what I'm doing without actually knowing me in reality. It became so horrifying (to me) that I had the urge to delete all photos of myself or deleting my account altogether.
[18.] Tired but Awake
I have this bad habit of not wanting to sleep even though I'm dead tired. I have no idea why. I will really like to kick this habit (even though a part of me is unwilling to), simply because it's taking a toll on my health.
I'm always tired and not sleeping enough. I think 24 hours is not enough for my use. It could be that or just bad time management on my part.
[19.] Indecisive Procrastinator
I'm a great indecisive procrastinator who cannot stop procrastinating when making decisions. Just look at the progress of my study plans and you'll know.
[20.] Bus vs Train
I dislike taking the train, especially during peak hours. It's during these rush hours that you have difficulty identifying whether strangers take advantage of you with the intention to, or did they fall accidentally on you due to the momentum of the train.
I'd very much prefer to travel on the bus. I miss those days when non-aircon buses were everywhere. I love sitting by the window (especially on the upper deck of double deckers) with the windows wide opened. I simply can't resist the feeling of cool wind blowing against my face. Woah~ I like sitting on the left seats, unless the sun is shining in from that window. I'll usually get migraines if the sun shines strongly with the aircon blasting me.
Anyway that's partially the reason why I chose NP over SP.
[21.] Endless Tears
Crying is my 'universal' way of expressing myself. I cry when I'm happy, sad, frustrated, irritated, angry and frustrated (especially).
I know many people who know me will find it hard to believe.
[22.] Strays
My parents and I care for the cat population that resides near my block. My parents practice responsible feeding and at the same time, observe the cats for sickness or injuries.
If any of the cats are sick or wounded, I'll be the one who double check on their condition and decides if their condition is serious enough to be brought to the vet. I'm also responsible for sending the cats to the vet and cleaning up their wounds if the cats are not hospitalised. Sometimes, he will help me with it too.
Sad to say, one of the cats that I brought to the vet was a victim of abuse. Good thing was, she survived.
[23.] Trap Neuter Return/Release
Though I'm not exactly comfortable with the thought of sterilising animals, I still proceed to sterilise the stray cats. The deal is this, if sterilising the cats can save their lives then why not?
For your information, our local authorities euthanise an alarming number of stray cats and dogs so as to 'curb' their population and to appease complainants (who complain against these cats and dogs). It used to be the case whereby sterilised cats and dogs will not be captured and euthanised, but now the authorities seem to pay little attention to that.
However, we still continue to practice TNRM in hope that the stray population can be controlled and that euthanisia will stop taking place. Taking care of strays are years of time, efforts, hardwork and money. Stray feeders fork out money for food, sterilisation, vet fees and medication out of their own pockets. Many still innocently thought that stray feeders are sponspored and backed up by charity welfare organisations.
Anyway, for the best interest of people who hae no idea what euthanisia is. Euthanisia is the killing of animals (usually) with lethal injection that is supposedly 'pain free'. Put to sleep is another term for euthanisia.
Note: Please don't debate/argue with me on how cruel or inhumane sterilisation is. If you think sterilisation is cruel, then how humane is it to euthanise animals that are in the pink of health?
[24.] Bulk Purchase
As I refuse to compromise on the quality of pet food I feed my furries with, I have to do so on cost saving, thus I practice economy of scale when purchasing pet food supplies. I always try to source for the best deals at both brick & mortar and online pet shops. Every cent count with the number of (furry) mouths my family and I have got to feed.
I usually purchase dog food, cat food and rabbit food in cartons or the biggest pack available. You can drop me a message if you'll like to purchase cheaper quality pet food. I can share with you what brand of food I feeding my furries with and how much cheaper they cost than the usual market price.
[25.] Long Winded
I think I'm pretty long winded when writing random stuff about myself. I realise that most people write each point with only one sentence, while I usually write more than one paragraph, explaining every single point. Maybe I'll try not to be so long winded the next time. Try.
Monday, February 2, 2009
Blank Mind
Each time my mind starts idling, a lot of thoughts will run through my mind. Sometimes, I'll amaze myself when a few thoughts run through my mind concurrently; I feel like a super computer. *sheepish grin*
Most of the times, I'll assess, re-assess, reflect and plan for my life. Other times, I'll think of social or current issues that i'll like to express my views on.
However, when my chain of thoughts break (usually when I'm brought back to reality from day dreaming, if you'd like to term it that way), my mind will be blank in a flash and I simply can't recall what I was thinking about just 5 seconds ago.
I always wish that u could keep the thoughts long enough for me to share or blog; some of these thoughts are really fantastic (in my opinion). It's such a shame to lose my precious thoughts just like that. Afterall, countless brain cells were sacrificed during my thinking process. (More brain cells died while I try to recall my loss thoughts.)
Do such things happen to you too? How do you overcome it?
Most of the times, I'll assess, re-assess, reflect and plan for my life. Other times, I'll think of social or current issues that i'll like to express my views on.
However, when my chain of thoughts break (usually when I'm brought back to reality from day dreaming, if you'd like to term it that way), my mind will be blank in a flash and I simply can't recall what I was thinking about just 5 seconds ago.
I always wish that u could keep the thoughts long enough for me to share or blog; some of these thoughts are really fantastic (in my opinion). It's such a shame to lose my precious thoughts just like that. Afterall, countless brain cells were sacrificed during my thinking process. (More brain cells died while I try to recall my loss thoughts.)
Do such things happen to you too? How do you overcome it?
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Someone
Ever since I was back at work after my MC (I worked only 1 out of 5 days on the 3rd week of January), I feel as though someone's watching me. I'm not a victim of schizophrenia.
I just have this odd feeling and this odd feeling usually occurs when I'm at work.
Many times, I 'see' a figure from the corner of my eye and I thought it was my colleague. Usually, I'm spot on but ever since these series of incident started, I always turn my head to realise that there's no one!
Initially, I felt kind of spooked when it happens (pretty frequently). Subsequently, I kind of got used to the presence. To date, that someone hasn't bothered me and neither did I bother it. We just left each other alone. I'll probably let things remain as it is, so long as the situation remain unchanged.
Hopefully, it will be gone when I resign from work.
I'm not too keen to be friends with it for life!
I just have this odd feeling and this odd feeling usually occurs when I'm at work.
Many times, I 'see' a figure from the corner of my eye and I thought it was my colleague. Usually, I'm spot on but ever since these series of incident started, I always turn my head to realise that there's no one!
Initially, I felt kind of spooked when it happens (pretty frequently). Subsequently, I kind of got used to the presence. To date, that someone hasn't bothered me and neither did I bother it. We just left each other alone. I'll probably let things remain as it is, so long as the situation remain unchanged.
Hopefully, it will be gone when I resign from work.
I'm not too keen to be friends with it for life!
My Inspiration: Shin's Brave Battle with Cancer
From a documentary film on tv, I learnt about Shin's brave battle with cancer.
Since then, I've been reading her blog regular basis. Though her blog does not have bright an attractive backgrounds nor fancy blog skins, I was 'hooked' onto her blog. What kept me returning were the blog entries. Shin's blog entries never failed to impress and inspire me; at times they made me do some self reflections.
However, Shin will never update her blog again. Today, I was told that she has passed away on Tuesday (27th January 2009). She has donated her body and organs for medical researches, a move which many people (Singaporeans especially) would not have taken.
I am saddened by Shin's departure even though I do not know her in person.
I'm sharing this because I hope that many others will benefit/be inspired by her like I do.
If you're keen to read more about Shin's Cancer Blog, click here.
The following is the documentary film that I watched before I came to know of Shin.
Since then, I've been reading her blog regular basis. Though her blog does not have bright an attractive backgrounds nor fancy blog skins, I was 'hooked' onto her blog. What kept me returning were the blog entries. Shin's blog entries never failed to impress and inspire me; at times they made me do some self reflections.
However, Shin will never update her blog again. Today, I was told that she has passed away on Tuesday (27th January 2009). She has donated her body and organs for medical researches, a move which many people (Singaporeans especially) would not have taken.
I am saddened by Shin's departure even though I do not know her in person.
I'm sharing this because I hope that many others will benefit/be inspired by her like I do.
If you're keen to read more about Shin's Cancer Blog, click here.
The following is the documentary film that I watched before I came to know of Shin.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
What's Wrong?
"What doesn't kill you makes you stronger".
This statement keeps ringing in my mind. Ironically, it doesn't not seem to apply to me.
Where did the drive and enthusiasm I once had disappeared to?
Why am I so negative these days?
I wonder what's wrong with me.
This statement keeps ringing in my mind. Ironically, it doesn't not seem to apply to me.
Where did the drive and enthusiasm I once had disappeared to?
Why am I so negative these days?
I wonder what's wrong with me.
Friday, January 16, 2009
Gastric Flu
For the whole of yesterday, my stomach's been feeling a little uncomfortable. It became worse after I ate lontong (cooked by the aunty at my work place).
Finally, from 10pm I started to have diarrhoea and it didn't stop until I visited the doctor today. I now hold a record breaking of 15 diarrhoea in a short span of 12 hours. There was once I even vomitted while seated on the toilet bowl. I couldn't have felt worse.
Despite that, I still had to go to work early in the morning, leaving home at 6 plus. My colleagues started to worry for me as my face turned paler with each visit to the toilet; they were worried that I would faint.
I finally made my way to the clinic after my supervisor came to work. I waited for an hour to see the doctor even though I was 5th in queue. Sighs.
In the end, I was given 2 days mc.
Despite all the discomfort, I had to proceed with my graduation concert that night. I had very much wanted to skip it, but I couldn't because there were a couple of duets and group songs.
Sighs. So much for practicing and preparing.
Finally, from 10pm I started to have diarrhoea and it didn't stop until I visited the doctor today. I now hold a record breaking of 15 diarrhoea in a short span of 12 hours. There was once I even vomitted while seated on the toilet bowl. I couldn't have felt worse.
Despite that, I still had to go to work early in the morning, leaving home at 6 plus. My colleagues started to worry for me as my face turned paler with each visit to the toilet; they were worried that I would faint.
I finally made my way to the clinic after my supervisor came to work. I waited for an hour to see the doctor even though I was 5th in queue. Sighs.
In the end, I was given 2 days mc.
Despite all the discomfort, I had to proceed with my graduation concert that night. I had very much wanted to skip it, but I couldn't because there were a couple of duets and group songs.
Sighs. So much for practicing and preparing.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Best Paying Jobs 2008
I came across this website, Salary.sg by chance while I was searching for some other information on Google. The website tabulated the list of top 100 best paying jobs in Singapore, rated in terms of pay. It sure was interesting to see the entire list.
I'll just list the top 30.
*Please note that the above information was extracted from Salary.sg
I'll just list the top 30.
- Specialised surgeon - $30,755
- Managing director - $24,472
- General surgeon - $17,872
- Commodities futures broker - $17,464
- General manager - $16,667
- Company director - $15,513
- Creative director (Advertising) - $13,000
- Legal service manager - $12,318
- Foreign exchange dealer and broker - $11,095
- Operations manager (Finance) - $9,808
- Legal officer - $9,790
- Risk management manager - $9,600
- Research and development manager - $9,385
- Computer operations and network manager - $9,300
- Training manager - $9,000
- Computer and information systems manager - $8,930
- Ship-master - $8,671
- Technical manager - $8,595
- Financial futures dealer and broker - $8,447
- Personnel / Human resource manager - $8,420
- Business development manager - $8,290
- Corporate planning manager - $8,290
- Fund manager - $8,125
- Treasury manager - $8,079
- Budgeting and financial accounting manager - $8,000
- Marketing manager - $8,000
- Power generation and distribution engineer - $7,848
- Engineering manager - $7,819
- Chemical engineer (Petroleum) - $7,678
- Manufacturing plant and production manager - $7,645
*Please note that the above information was extracted from Salary.sg
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Performance
As part of my music school's efforts to bring us to a higher level without internal examinations, my teacher has arranged for us (students) to perform at this cafe next week. I'm having the jitters as I feel ill-prepared. Moreover I'm really afraid that I'll fall sick; a few kids in my class are sick and it doesn't help that I'm not getting sufficient rest. I really do not want to fall sick in the next two weeks and the last thing I would want is to lose my voice.
My boss was actually kind enough to ask me if I had wanted to take a day's leave in preparation for the performance. I'm still undecided about it. She even asked if I will like the support of her and other fellow colleagues. How nice of her. I told her I appreciate her kindness but the performance is held on a weekday evening, far from the west. Thus I doubt most colleagues could make it for the event. On top of that, it's my very first performance and I'm afraid I'll screw it up right in front of so many people. I'm really feeling nervous about it, so nervous I didn't invite anybody.
I'm keeping my fingers crossed that everything will turn out fine.
Anyone keen to watch the performance?
My boss was actually kind enough to ask me if I had wanted to take a day's leave in preparation for the performance. I'm still undecided about it. She even asked if I will like the support of her and other fellow colleagues. How nice of her. I told her I appreciate her kindness but the performance is held on a weekday evening, far from the west. Thus I doubt most colleagues could make it for the event. On top of that, it's my very first performance and I'm afraid I'll screw it up right in front of so many people. I'm really feeling nervous about it, so nervous I didn't invite anybody.
I'm keeping my fingers crossed that everything will turn out fine.
Anyone keen to watch the performance?
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Blogging with iPod
Just gotten my iPod a week ago as a christmas present. 1st time test blogging it with free wireless access at downtown east. Will review later on how good/bad the experience is.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
16 Random Things about Me
I realise that I hardly blog about myself and I guess my friends know very little about (the real) me apart from those they can observe after spending loads of time with me. Thus I've decided to do the '16 Random Things' that I've been tagged by xia.
These were the initial rules:[RULES] Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 16 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 16 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you.
However, I doubt I'll tag 16 people because I strongly believe that less than 16 people around me knew that I blogged for myself and I'll like to maintain it this way. Reason being, I don't want to lose too much privacy; you never know who's reading your blog and who's attempting to stalk you or intrude your personal life. Thus if I'm the one who informed you of my blog address, it shows that I have great trust in you.
Anyway, you are tagged if you
1. Know me in person
2. Own a blog
3. Reading my current post
4. Haven't been tagged 16 Random Things before
16 Random Things about Me
[1.] Furries
The first thing I do in the morning is to hug my dogs, smell their fur and kiss their ears. Sometimes when the alarm goes off and I snooze if for another 5 minutes, I'll hug/lie on them like how I'll do so to my pillow or bolster. Once in a while, I'll drool on them. *blushes*
[2. ] Men & Pants
I get very very irritated when men start unbuckling their belts and/or unbutton their pants while walking to the gents. I get even more irritated when they start unzipping before even reaching the gents. I get very offended when they turn to look in the direction of women who are standing near or walking towards the ladies, and this is especially so when they look at me with that pervertic look. It's worse when some attempt to pop their heads into the ladies, hoping to catch a glimpse. Most times, I react with a hard glare or I'll choose to act as if I saw nothing and continue walking as per normal. If only erectile dysfunction is a result of men acting and/or behaving like a pervert.
[3.] Men & Doors
I get super pissed off when men (regardless of age) pees without closing the doors. Come on, not everyone enjoys looking at your ass. If you think such things don't happen in a 'civilised' society like Singapore, then you are so wrong. In the past few months, I came across such incidents thrice. Once in the toilet of a diving centre and twice in the toilets of coffeeshop. Shame on you!
[4.] Examinations Fear
I'm really scared of having to sit for examinations. I've been like that since I entered secondary school. I'll be so stressed out that I'll suffer from migraines and stomaches which will worsen into having diarrhoea and vomitting. Thankfully I've managed to overcome part of the problem thus I no longer puke or run to the toilet when I sit for paper. However, I'll still breakout in cold sweat (literally) for my first few papers, and I'll still have bad headaches and gastric upset once in a while.
[5.] Examinations, here I Come
Ironically I still sign myself up for examinations for the various courses I'm taking. Examinations are a benchmark to where I stand and they act as a motivation to me. Without examinations, I won't have the urge to push myself harder to greater heights; it's akin to learning without an aim or goal. Moreover in Singapore, most people will look at your credentials more than your experience or years of learning, thus social pressure is part of the reasons why I force myself to take certain examinations. I've just taken my Grade 4 Guzheng practical last year from NUS and I will be taking my Grade 4 Pop Music from LCM this year.
[6.] Watches
I have this love for watches, especially designs which are exquisite or unique and I'm glad my mum shares the same interest; each time she comes across watches which catch her eyes, she'll purchase it (as long as it's not ridiculously expensive). The best thing is, she doesn't like wearing watches, thus I stand to benefit most of the times.
[7.] Bookshop
Under the influence of my mother, I really enjoy trips to the bookshops. I remember visiting bookshops on a regular basis since young (approximately 3 or 4 year of age). Times and EPB bookshops (which has since closed down) are my favourite bookshops then. Currently, my favourite bookshop is Page One @ Vivo City, as it's got a wide variety of books imported from all parts of the world and most often than not, it has got books that bookshops like Borders or Kinokunya do not carry. However, this comes at an expensive price tag.
[8.] Books
As a result of Point 7, I have minimal resistance for buying books; I hardly ever leave bookshops like Kinokuniya, Borders and PageOne without purchasing a book. I detest reading fiction books ever since I grow out of Fairy Tales. Ladybird books like Little Red Riding Hood, Three Little Pigs and Princess and the Pea are probably the last few fiction books that I enjoyed reading. I enjoy reading biographies, autobiographies, encyclopedias and books related to health, natural healing and animals (especially dogs).
[9.] Library
Even though a walk in wardrobe is (almost) every girl's dream including mine, I'll choose to have a mini library instead of the wardrobe if I have to choose between the two. I'll like to have shelves equipped with a built-in ladder, like those in Borders bookshop. Then I'll record all the books with serial numbers and build a mini database to keep track on my collection of books. Everything will be perfect if I have a cosy corner with the right kind of lighting, making reading a pleasant experience.
[9.] Windows
I never realise how important windows are to me until I worked in an office facing the four walls. I dislike the feeling of not being to witness the gradual change in brightness throughout the day; I hate the feeling of not knowing whether it's morning, noon, afternoon or early evening without looking at the clock. I feel as though I'm trapped and confined within four walls. My only relief then (while working at that office without windows) was to take short breaks at the pantry, becuse that was the only place with glass panels and I really enjoyed looking out of the window even though the view wasn't all that fantastic.
[10.] Living Things
I think life is meaningless for me when there's no life around me. In other words, I need to be surrounded by living things. I was glad to have 'the companion' of several pots of plants in my previous office. My mood always feel a tad better each time I turn to look at the plants growing in tip top condition (there was a gardener appointed to care for these indoor plants). I guess that's the same reason why I've got so many animals in my house. Oh ya, did I mention that I have mini pots of non soil based plants in my room?
[11.] Creepy Crawly
Ever since I saw how hard a cockroach struggled to stay alive (it was later 'saved' by me), I've never killed any insects for the sake of killing them. I only kill insects that
Conclusion: A life is precious irregardless of species.
[12.] Lizards
Lizards are the only non-pets in my house that have the 'rights' to live in our grounds. When we spot lizards around, we won't freak out in fear nor attempt to catch/kill it. Once in a while, when small baby lizards are spotted, we'll start informing each other about it. Baby lizard are pretty cute actually, especially when they stare at you with their black shiny eyes that look way too big on their head.
No, my family members aren't great fans of geckos but we co-exist with each other. We believe in maintaining a healthy 'eco-system' in the household. I guess things will remain this way as long as the lizard population does not increase to the extent of them behaving like the landlords and us, like tenants.
Till date, my only bad experience was to have a silly lizard dropping from the ceiling onto my shoulder while I was preparing for a bath. I did not have any clothes on (duh, who bathes with clothes?) while the lizard made its way down my body. I felt very molested by that 'hum sup' lizard. I'm almost certain that the lizard was a male.
There was another incident similar to the above. The only difference was, I had my clothes on while brushing teeth.
[13.]Flexible Joints
I was told by a few doctors and therapists, with the aid of X-rays and CT scans that I have flexible joints. So flexible that I'm prone to sprains and dislocations if I'm careless, especially if I do not warm up before sports. Flexible joints (or rather loose joints) was part of the reason why I had to suffer a few dislocations in my left kneecap before I was being operated on.
[14.]Potatoes
I simply LOVE potatoes; baked, steamed, pan fried, deep fried, grilled, roasted. From french fries to rostii to wedges to baked potatoes to grilled potatoes to potatoe salad to potatoes in curry to bla bla bla. I love them as long as they're cooked. Any kind, every kind.
[15.]Soup
Soup is my life. I got to have them at least once a day. I'll feel miserable if I don't have it for my meals, especially dinner. If I'm having gastritis, suffering from gastric pains, feeling bloated queasiness, having a bowl of nice warm tasty soup is the answer. I dislike soups that are bland (due to the lack of effort and time while cooking), soups laded with monosodium glutamate and instant soups.
The two soups that I like, but will avoid as much as possible are Tom Yum Goong (especially those sold in Singapore restaurants that have lots of lemongrass added) and Hot & Spicy Soup. Reason being, I almost always diarrhoea or vomit after consuming them.
[16.] I took seven days, several logins and many amendments to this post before I managed to come out with this list. Having to write 16 random things about yourself isn't that easy afterall. I struggled with it for quite some time.
These were the initial rules:[RULES] Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 16 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 16 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you.
However, I doubt I'll tag 16 people because I strongly believe that less than 16 people around me knew that I blogged for myself and I'll like to maintain it this way. Reason being, I don't want to lose too much privacy; you never know who's reading your blog and who's attempting to stalk you or intrude your personal life. Thus if I'm the one who informed you of my blog address, it shows that I have great trust in you.
Anyway, you are tagged if you
1. Know me in person
2. Own a blog
3. Reading my current post
4. Haven't been tagged 16 Random Things before
16 Random Things about Me
[1.] Furries
The first thing I do in the morning is to hug my dogs, smell their fur and kiss their ears. Sometimes when the alarm goes off and I snooze if for another 5 minutes, I'll hug/lie on them like how I'll do so to my pillow or bolster. Once in a while, I'll drool on them. *blushes*
[2. ] Men & Pants
I get very very irritated when men start unbuckling their belts and/or unbutton their pants while walking to the gents. I get even more irritated when they start unzipping before even reaching the gents. I get very offended when they turn to look in the direction of women who are standing near or walking towards the ladies, and this is especially so when they look at me with that pervertic look. It's worse when some attempt to pop their heads into the ladies, hoping to catch a glimpse. Most times, I react with a hard glare or I'll choose to act as if I saw nothing and continue walking as per normal. If only erectile dysfunction is a result of men acting and/or behaving like a pervert.
[3.] Men & Doors
I get super pissed off when men (regardless of age) pees without closing the doors. Come on, not everyone enjoys looking at your ass. If you think such things don't happen in a 'civilised' society like Singapore, then you are so wrong. In the past few months, I came across such incidents thrice. Once in the toilet of a diving centre and twice in the toilets of coffeeshop. Shame on you!
[4.] Examinations Fear
I'm really scared of having to sit for examinations. I've been like that since I entered secondary school. I'll be so stressed out that I'll suffer from migraines and stomaches which will worsen into having diarrhoea and vomitting. Thankfully I've managed to overcome part of the problem thus I no longer puke or run to the toilet when I sit for paper. However, I'll still breakout in cold sweat (literally) for my first few papers, and I'll still have bad headaches and gastric upset once in a while.
[5.] Examinations, here I Come
Ironically I still sign myself up for examinations for the various courses I'm taking. Examinations are a benchmark to where I stand and they act as a motivation to me. Without examinations, I won't have the urge to push myself harder to greater heights; it's akin to learning without an aim or goal. Moreover in Singapore, most people will look at your credentials more than your experience or years of learning, thus social pressure is part of the reasons why I force myself to take certain examinations. I've just taken my Grade 4 Guzheng practical last year from NUS and I will be taking my Grade 4 Pop Music from LCM this year.
[6.] Watches
I have this love for watches, especially designs which are exquisite or unique and I'm glad my mum shares the same interest; each time she comes across watches which catch her eyes, she'll purchase it (as long as it's not ridiculously expensive). The best thing is, she doesn't like wearing watches, thus I stand to benefit most of the times.
[7.] Bookshop
Under the influence of my mother, I really enjoy trips to the bookshops. I remember visiting bookshops on a regular basis since young (approximately 3 or 4 year of age). Times and EPB bookshops (which has since closed down) are my favourite bookshops then. Currently, my favourite bookshop is Page One @ Vivo City, as it's got a wide variety of books imported from all parts of the world and most often than not, it has got books that bookshops like Borders or Kinokunya do not carry. However, this comes at an expensive price tag.
[8.] Books
As a result of Point 7, I have minimal resistance for buying books; I hardly ever leave bookshops like Kinokuniya, Borders and PageOne without purchasing a book. I detest reading fiction books ever since I grow out of Fairy Tales. Ladybird books like Little Red Riding Hood, Three Little Pigs and Princess and the Pea are probably the last few fiction books that I enjoyed reading. I enjoy reading biographies, autobiographies, encyclopedias and books related to health, natural healing and animals (especially dogs).
[9.] Library
Even though a walk in wardrobe is (almost) every girl's dream including mine, I'll choose to have a mini library instead of the wardrobe if I have to choose between the two. I'll like to have shelves equipped with a built-in ladder, like those in Borders bookshop. Then I'll record all the books with serial numbers and build a mini database to keep track on my collection of books. Everything will be perfect if I have a cosy corner with the right kind of lighting, making reading a pleasant experience.
[9.] Windows
I never realise how important windows are to me until I worked in an office facing the four walls. I dislike the feeling of not being to witness the gradual change in brightness throughout the day; I hate the feeling of not knowing whether it's morning, noon, afternoon or early evening without looking at the clock. I feel as though I'm trapped and confined within four walls. My only relief then (while working at that office without windows) was to take short breaks at the pantry, becuse that was the only place with glass panels and I really enjoyed looking out of the window even though the view wasn't all that fantastic.
[10.] Living Things
I think life is meaningless for me when there's no life around me. In other words, I need to be surrounded by living things. I was glad to have 'the companion' of several pots of plants in my previous office. My mood always feel a tad better each time I turn to look at the plants growing in tip top condition (there was a gardener appointed to care for these indoor plants). I guess that's the same reason why I've got so many animals in my house. Oh ya, did I mention that I have mini pots of non soil based plants in my room?
[11.] Creepy Crawly
Ever since I saw how hard a cockroach struggled to stay alive (it was later 'saved' by me), I've never killed any insects for the sake of killing them. I only kill insects that
- Steal my food/drinks
- Invade my sleeping area
- Harass my furries
- Explore my furries' cages
- Hunt in my furries' food bowls
- Rest in my furries' sleeping area
Conclusion: A life is precious irregardless of species.
[12.] Lizards
Lizards are the only non-pets in my house that have the 'rights' to live in our grounds. When we spot lizards around, we won't freak out in fear nor attempt to catch/kill it. Once in a while, when small baby lizards are spotted, we'll start informing each other about it. Baby lizard are pretty cute actually, especially when they stare at you with their black shiny eyes that look way too big on their head.
No, my family members aren't great fans of geckos but we co-exist with each other. We believe in maintaining a healthy 'eco-system' in the household. I guess things will remain this way as long as the lizard population does not increase to the extent of them behaving like the landlords and us, like tenants.
Till date, my only bad experience was to have a silly lizard dropping from the ceiling onto my shoulder while I was preparing for a bath. I did not have any clothes on (duh, who bathes with clothes?) while the lizard made its way down my body. I felt very molested by that 'hum sup' lizard. I'm almost certain that the lizard was a male.
There was another incident similar to the above. The only difference was, I had my clothes on while brushing teeth.
[13.]Flexible Joints
I was told by a few doctors and therapists, with the aid of X-rays and CT scans that I have flexible joints. So flexible that I'm prone to sprains and dislocations if I'm careless, especially if I do not warm up before sports. Flexible joints (or rather loose joints) was part of the reason why I had to suffer a few dislocations in my left kneecap before I was being operated on.
[14.]Potatoes
I simply LOVE potatoes; baked, steamed, pan fried, deep fried, grilled, roasted. From french fries to rostii to wedges to baked potatoes to grilled potatoes to potatoe salad to potatoes in curry to bla bla bla. I love them as long as they're cooked. Any kind, every kind.
[15.]Soup
Soup is my life. I got to have them at least once a day. I'll feel miserable if I don't have it for my meals, especially dinner. If I'm having gastritis, suffering from gastric pains, feeling bloated queasiness, having a bowl of nice warm tasty soup is the answer. I dislike soups that are bland (due to the lack of effort and time while cooking), soups laded with monosodium glutamate and instant soups.
The two soups that I like, but will avoid as much as possible are Tom Yum Goong (especially those sold in Singapore restaurants that have lots of lemongrass added) and Hot & Spicy Soup. Reason being, I almost always diarrhoea or vomit after consuming them.
[16.] I took seven days, several logins and many amendments to this post before I managed to come out with this list. Having to write 16 random things about yourself isn't that easy afterall. I struggled with it for quite some time.
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